MEME BLAH

i think: Mainly my thoughts consist of things to do, k-pop and blogging ideas. And if not that it would be repetitive song lyrics in my head.

i know: I need to work extremely hard for my course this year. So much to do but I’M VERY EXCITED! :D

i want: clothes, shoes and perhaps a new handbag. Oh, and a pair of Dr Dre Solo HDs - top of my Christmas list right now. And money. And everything.

i have: 16 autographs now! When I receive more I hope to make a fabulous blog post about it. Mum also told me there are three at home that I still need to open. I’m excited.

i wish: I had whiter teeth and a better figure.

i hate: rude people and poor manners.

i miss: Jordan, but that’s understandable. I’d rather not blog about this for a while to be honest.

i fear: landing in some serious debt in the future.

i feel: awesome most of the time. Unless I’m being quiet, that’s when you should not attempt to speak to me.

i hear: music blaring from my iTunes. Did you know only 31% of my iTunes library is k-pop? Yes, it surprised me too.

i smell: of “Sex and the City: KISS” which I claimed for free on my O2 surprises.

i crave: biscuits and cereal. I swear I’ve never ate so much junk in my life since I’ve arrived here. :( Cry.

i search: korean guys on google images.

i wonder: why I wasn’t able to tell Key and Onew from SHINee apart when I was learning their names??

i regret: not speaking to that cute guy I saw in uni when he smiled at me. Alas, I ran away because I am shy.

i love: random things, like high resolution photographs and videos, getting post and unusual jewelry. 

i care: for Jared. Hurt him and I’ll knock your brain out. 

i always: colour-coordinate my jewelry to match my outfits.

i am not: as intimidating as people seem to think? I am a dead on person, really. Maybe just a bit mad. Don’t judge on first impressions!

i believe: in God. Although I don’t appear to talk about my faith in my posts, I firmly believe in God.

i dance: no I don’t.

i sing: along to k-pop songs. When you listen to it often enough you can sing along. They have lots of English lines too which makes it easier.

i cry: at films. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Pt. 2 I cried the whole way through - my childhood ended then. 

i don’t always: listen to people. I would listen for a while then my mind wanders. 

i fight: with Jared. But Jared punches like Bruce Lee and leaves me rolling on the floor in pain. (I am surprisingly weak though.)

i write: blog posts once a week.

i win: at racing games. Irony because I hate driving in real life.

i lose: nothing. But when I do I get veryyyy annoyed. When packing for uni, I lost my bullet earrings... the one’s I ordered online which T.O.P also has. I was wearing them the day before and they were dropped into somewhere safe the day before. I just don’t remember where. :(

i never: tell lies. I’m very bad at it and someone always catches me out or I burst out laughing.

i confuse: myself easily over simple situations or information. I tend to hear something and look at it at a completely different perspective. Emma, James and my mother understand what I mean. “...Beauticians?”

i listen: TO MISTER SIMPUL. Oh it’s just ended. 

i can usually be found: in my room online or eating and watching T.V. Or boiling the kettle. Or on the trampoline.

i am scared: of daddy long legs - the giant, dancing, flying spider.

i need: a nice cup of tea and another episode of Doctor Who.

i am happy about: that Big Bang is first in voting for the MTV EMA Worldwide Act Asia Pacific award! Hooray!!

Woooo...Yes I shall return to the other meme post...eventually.

MOST WANTED

Autographs that would be awesome to have...

In no particular order...

• David Tennant - because he was a beast of a Doctor.
• Rupert Grint - because he's my Ron-Ron.
• Joseph Gordon-Levitt - because nobody looks better in a jumper than him.
• Johnny Depp - because he's probably the best actor in the world.
• George Clooney - because he's a very attractive old man.
• Ashton Kutcher - because he's an sweeeet guy.
• Daniel Radcliffe - because he's HARRY POTTER.
• Michael McIntyre - because he's the funniest man in the world.
• Gaspard Ulliel - because he's smokin' hot.
• Ben Barnes - because his face looks nice on photographic paper.
• Michael Cera - because he's an absolute wee dote.
• Paul McCartney - because he's my favourite second Beatle.
• Take That - because they rule the world.
• Bradley Cooper - because he's a hunk!
• T.O.P - because this one goes without saying.
• Tim Burton because he is a fantastic director.
• G-Dragon - because he breaks my heart.
• Zac Efron - because he is the music in me.
• Bi Rain - because he's the only type of weather I like.
• Tom Felton - be my big boy, Draco Malfoy.
• Lee Byung Hun - because he's amaazzzing.
• James Corden - because he is a hilarious man!
• Russell Brand - because he's very intelligent and amusing.
• Taylor Lautner - because if I had to choose I would be Team Jacob.
• Alan Rickman - because he plays the legendary Snape.
• Lee Min Ho - because he's my favourite Korean actor.
• The Wanted - because they are one of the few British boybands I actually like.
• Jared Leto - because what girl doesn't love Jared Leto!
• Black Eyed Peas - because I love their music.
• Nicki Minaj - because I love her clothes/figure/attitude.
• Emma Watson - because she's a perfect lady.
• CL from 2NE1 - because she's the baddest female Seoul city ever had.
• Katy Perry - because she's very stylish and cool.
• Lady Gaga - because she's one of few genuinely talented musicians out there.
• Ellen Page - because she's a good actress.
• James and Oliver Phelps - because it's time to get sleazy with some Weasleys.
• Taylor Swift - because I actually do like her.
• Anne Hathaway - because she's sooo pretty and very talented.
• J.K Rowling - because she gave us a magical childhood.
• Helena Bonham-Carter - because she's one of my favourite actresses.
• Meryl Streep - because she is classy.

I didn't mean that to be as perverse as they came across as....I found two of the Harry Potter ones online. And some of them were terribly boring because there weren't really reasons why I wanted them apart from just liking the person. Blah.

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WISHES TWO

And so the wishing shall continue!!

I wish for....a beautiful house.

I would love a big mansion with many pretty ornaments and paintings. Preferably a castle that isn’t too old. (because it would be more than likely unhygienic...and haunted)

I wish that...that no-one uninvited will see my blog.

This sounds awful, but I really really hope that none of my family members see le Claudblog. Not that there’s anything bad on it, it’s just nice to have somewhere private where I can chatter away and not worry what they would think.

Obviously I do know my friends and a few others do visit, but that’s different. They understand the weirdness and join in on the Blogging fun.

If I go traveling, die or move away for some unknown reason they could read it then. But I would feel conscious if they saw it now. They would ask loads of questions which would be extremely irritating. They do that on Facebook too: “Oh, I see you are commenting on her post there, what do you mean by that? Oh, who is Gareth Graham? (using you as an example Gareth, lol) Why is he asking you about art on your wall? Oh Claudia! I saw you online at 1am last night! Could you not sleep...” And so on.

I wish....to attend a Korean Pop concert.

After watching fancams from SM Town in Paris and gaping at SHINee saunter through Heathrow airport in London made me realise how I’m actually craving to see these guys live. Any of them, even if it’s a group or soloist I’m not as familiar with, I would love the opportunity. I wish for more K-Pop concerts to happen in the United Kingdom.

(Reading over this made me laugh..."craving?" it's like I want SHINee like I want a chocolate biscuit: MMM.)

I wish for...attending the final Harry Potter film showing at midnight.

I’ve been a hardcore HP fan for 9 years of my life. That’s exactly half of my existence so far. Please, may I see a Harry Potter premiere. This is my last chance.

I wish...to back to school for one more day.

I can’t believe this is one of my wishes. Although Upper 6th in K.H.S was one of the best years of my school life, any time I drive by the school or even see something that reminds me makes my heart feel sad. I didn’t realise how much I missed school. I feel a pang of regret that I maybe didn’t make the effort with the people of my year.

I yearn for just one more day of talking to them all, and catching up with the craic. Getting the cramped bus in. Internally singing along to my iPod when walking up the Prefect’s stairs every morning. Checking if Alison was in. Catching up on the craic with Noelle in registration. Celebrating if a class was cancelled. Spending an hour or two in the library in my seat. Bullying people to get yearbook information in. Prayer meeting with the gang on Monday’s. Complaining about ongoing English homework. Crying when we had to go to triple English on Wednesday’s. Shouting at Mary-Jane to do some work. Duty with Emma: our weekly gossip sessions. The most BORING lunchtimes ever. Pee-time with Amy and our hand-dryer dance. The dreadful bus rides home with those little monsters.

Oh please, just one more day. Give me just one more day of school life because I didn’t appreciate it when I could have.

I wish...I could dance.

Seriously, I don’t think I have any rhythm or beat in my body. Ah, how I wish I was agile and graceful without looking like an elephant wearing roller skates!

I wish...to become famous.

Yes, I would like to be famous. I don’t know what this could possibly be for, but I just think it would be nice for people to recognize me for some reason. I wouldn’t like to be exceptionally famous, where strangers start screaming and running like I’m the almighty Bieber or something, just a small collection of people recognizing me “Hey, aren’t you Claudia?”

However I don’t think my full name sounds very star like, I may need a stage name. Claudine Bean.

I wish...I could just eat and not put on any weight.

Life can be so unfair! I see girls eating these massive chocolate bars and they are like, size 6. If I ate like that I would have a full stone on in a week!

I wish for...an unlimited amount of pairs of glasses.

When I am older I would like to be one of those super classy women who have a pair of glasses for every outfit they wear. May I add here that I would also like an unlimited amount of contact lenses too, because sometimes there are clothes that simply don’t suit spectacles.

I wish...to grow old beautifully and glamorously.

Face it. All us ladies want to look like Jane Fonda when we eventually reach 73.

Okay I'm done now.

- Claudia

WISHES ONE

“When you wish upon a star

Makes no difference who you are

Anything your heart desires

Will come to you”

Firstly, I would like to say that I’m not copying James’ idea.

Secondly, I would like to say the first sentence was a lie.

Today begins the Wish blog post.

I think one of the worst things about growing up is that we stop wishing for things because it’s realised wishing does not work and we have to face up to reality. I detest maturity so I will discuss my most treasured wishes and dreams that I desire.

I wish for...health for my family present and future.

This really goes without explanation, but Mum always told me that your health is one of the most precious things you’ll have. So Mr Genie, I wish for good health.

I wish for... the perfect man and to be eternally happy.

I feel I am losing hope in ever finding a man, I must confess. And yes, I know I am still young, but most married couples meet or start dating in their late teens/early twenties and this fact distresses me greatly because I am ALONE!! And in all seriousness, I would prefer just to settle down and get married than go to university. But where I exist, no man takes my fancy. (being fussy is my downfall and the explanation for my singleness #claudiaisfussy) so I am optimistic that university will open some doors in the dating world.

So I wish for some decent guy to sweep me off my feet. (If he’s strong enough that is.)

I wish that...I would win reasonable amount of money.

I think if I had unlimited wealth I would be very discontent, so instead I have wished to win a rational amount of money that would allow me to survive a standard way of living in the future. Something that would allow me to pay off a mortgage, a student loan or assist in build a house. Then I would still have to work to afford luxuries. Seems like a fair deal to me.

I wish...that I could play the violin.

Sadly, I have no interest in music since being forced to play piano as a child. “Claudia, playing piano is simple maths! Just count the beats as you play!” “I HATE MATHS. I HATE PIANO LESSONS. I HATE EVERYTHING. LEAVE ME ALONE” This caused so much anger and dispute I refused to learn anything else after that. Regrettably, I really do wish that I could play the violin.

I think violins are the best musical instruments in existence. There is nothing more attractive than a someone who can play a string instrument: they look very elegant and composed, it’s so engaging. Love it!

I wish for...a walk-in wardrobe.

To put this simply, I’ve wanted a walk-in wardrobe for many years of my life. The first time such a notion came into my head was when I was watching the ‘Sex and the City’ film with Emma N. When I saw Carrie Bradshaw’s new wardrobe that Mr Big gave her I died inside. There’s so much space to hold everything, and I could change clothes in my wardrobe area without garments flying everywhere and getting lost all over the place.

I wish for...my student loan to be paid off.

I haven’t even started university yet, and already I’m thinking of the debts that will troll me for the rest of my working life. I do not like worry, and would like all these silly debts to vanish.

I wish...I could be able to turn invisible at will.

I think having the power to turn invisible would come in very handy in certain situations. Sneaking in places and listening to people’s conversations could be interesting...but perhaps disturbing too.

I wish...I could travel to Korea/travel without worry.

I’m not sure if you knew this, but I would like to go to Korea?! (Sorry, I’m not very good at sarcasm, baha)

I know it would never happen because 1. It’s a lot of money. 2. I have no-one to go with. 3. It would be difficult to prepare. 4. I’m too afraid!

As much as I love my family, I feel slightly burdened that I have been so overprotected! Now I’m older I feel as though I am incapable of doing anything on my own which makes everything very frightening.

I just wish I could go there without all the hassle from everyone. :-/

I wish....I could become a metamorphmagus.

Only if you are cool enough would you know what this is. If you know who Nymphadora Tonks is (Ha! If, everyone should know who Tonks is!) Tonks is able to change her appearance at will. Imagine how awesome and useful that would be?? I could customise my hair colour and style to match my outfits!

Part 2 will continue....soon.

6. YOUR DREAMS

Okay, I’m slightly confused about this one: do I write about my dreams that I have as I sleep, my future dreams or about daydream dreams? I think I’ll write about all three for the challenge.

Daytime Dreams

Dear Daydreaming Claudia’s brain,

You are the best type of dreaming I think. I can think freely without worry and also have the option to think what I want. As long as I don’t get caught doing so when I shouldn’t be, that’s happened before and it was bad. :[

You are the source of my creative talent. You fuel my ideas to create art, new blogging ideas and Youtube movies. I am glad you are as wacky as myself, or I wouldn’t be a very exciting person.

It’s also a great way of wasting time, especially when I have nothing better to do.

Ummm yeah, what else is there to say? Thank you that I’m a good daydreamer, brain.

From Claudia

Night-time Dreams

Dear Sleeping Claudia’s brain,

Now the words I have to say to you are not as nice as before. Firstly, I think it’s a crime that I don’t dream every night. Can you tell me someway that will allow that? It’s very disappointing waking up and realising that I slept empty-headed. Not that I’m complaining that I have a peaceful night sleep, it’s just dull.

On the other hand, you do have your moments. Sometimes if I’m lucky I dream every night for a full week. This makes me very happy, especially when the dreams are good.

But another thing to complain about it is the content of my dreams. Kerri tells me she dreams about Super Junior at least every other night- I’ve only had three Asian related dreams in my life! One where I hugged Eunhyuk (acceptable) but nearly broke his bones! And another featured Seung-ri from Big Bang - Seung-Ri, seriously!? What about T.O.P?? Or if I’m being too fussy, Taeyang or G-Dragon will do, I suppose. The third was when I was meeting Siwon in the Port-O-Call for lunch, that’s lame. Please sort that out.

The third thing is the whole reoccurring people thing. People who know me might know what I mean here. There’s a small group of people that appear in my dreams all the time. I would like more of an mixture of people who star in my dreams, and none that scar me for life either. You know what I mean.

I hope I made that clear enough.

From Claudia

Future Dreams

Dear worried Claudia’s brain who thinks about the future too much,

Okay, I have been through this before in my blog. I worry. A lot. Especially about what way my life will end up.

The questions go through my head constantly: Where will I go to university at? Where will I live? What kind of house will I have? Will I ever get married? Who will I marry? Is he Asian? What age will I be? Will I always be this weight? Will I have children? How many? What will I name them? Will I have twins? All boys? Girls? Will I understand all this mortgage, insurance crap? Will I be poor? Will I ever get my driving test? Will I always be close to Jared? Will I be close to Mum and Dad? Will I run the business? Will I get a job or become a housewife? How long will I live? Will I become a grandmother? When will I die? Will I get to do everything I want to do? etc etc

Okay, brain. Stop worrying. I won’t allow it anymore. My emotions are messed up enough from just being a teenager so get lost and allow life to take it’s course.

From Claudia

HONESTY

Okay, the whole point of this blog is writing what you really think of a certain person. You can say whatever on earth you want to and they won't know. Each number is a different person.

Person 1.) You are so cool. You know everything about me and the way my mind works. I don't know what I would do without you and we share everything with each other. However, I notice you are very distant recently.. are you OK? I wish you were back to normal and everything will be fun and normal again.

Person 2.) Why have you abandoned me?? We used to be such good friends and now you totally ignore me at every possible moment I try to talk. I thought you were quite cool and respected you for who you are. I've given up now. All you think about is yourself-You are a lazy slob... I still miss you though.

Person 3.) Let's add to my anger here for person number 3. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU. You have changed so much in the two years that I have known you. You used to be so nice and so sweet. Now you hang around with them awful people and you really get on my nerves. Catch yourself on.

Person 4.) I think I'm getting on with you better now-a-days. For a while I really hated you, I know that's harsh. But you got on my nerves so much. Especially last year. But this year things are gonna get better.

Person 5.) Strangely enough, number 5 and I get on great. I never thought I'd be friends with you, you seem too "cool." You are great craic and so so fashionable, I am jealous of your amount of clothes. And you're so funny, you are class. BUT you never listen to anything and you are so unorganised!! You have great ideas but never get round to doing them, which is a shame. I sometimes carry them out instead, but anything I do, you can do better. Which can be a bit sickening sometimes.

Person 6.) HA you make me laugh so much. You have a wicked sense of humour and I think you have more common sense than I do. I feel blessed having you as my brother and as my friend.

Person 7.) Hey, you are so nice. Like, you have changed so much since September and since then we get on so well. You are so lovely. You always smile at me in school and always make an effort in talking to me even though somedays I feel like crap. I love how calm and quiet your nature is. You are really great with kids too.

Person 8.) Why don't we talk anymore? I'm sorry I have been so busy with school and stuff. But to be honest, you are too obsessed with your boyfriend to have time with anyone.

Person 9.) Wowee you are so sweet and kind! You are a darling. You are afraid to offend anyone and you are so so polite. I love how we are becoming more friendly again! Just like old times!

Person 10.) You look at me in school all funny. It's scaring me a bit. You never used to talk to me and suddenly you do. It's odd.

11 Things I would secretly love to happen...

1. Lose like 2 stone in weight, and cheekbones magically appearing on my face.

2. Accidentally bump into Joe Jonas and get my photo taken with him, which I can then set as my profile pic on Facebook.

3. To win the lotto.

4. Go on a trip with Kerri and Emma to Seoul, understanding the culture and language.

5. Own a Volkswagen Camper Van, one of them really cool retro ones.

6. To become friends with some Asian guys, or even date one, and keep it a secret. ;)

7. To meet Super Junior.

8. Marry a really rich, handsome man who would love me to pieces. (shallow? yes? no?)

9. To be recognised on the street from being known online or somewhere cool.

10. To be fluent in Korean. Something I can't ever see happening. =/

11. Be able to sing or dance beautifully.

12. Become cool, likable and have a charm.

Anybody able to grant me any of my wishes?

Writing this list has suddenly made me feel a lot better since my last post. Hurrah!

GOODNIGHT.