Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Wednesday, 1 April 2015

what's next?

Evening all,
I cannot sleep. I had class this evening and they were talking about dissertations and the mountains of work still left to hand in. It was all too much.
I’m not sure what I’ll be doing with my life when I eventually finish my Masters. Here is a list of things I could try at the end of September:

  • Join a baking class - I would love to learn how to make decorative cakes
  • Take up helping in Sunday School and G.B again to help out more in my church
  • Join the gym or start swimming again
  • Help out at a charity shop
  • Make a website to display my portfolio work online
  • Create more vector art - it's fun and looks good printed
  • Become more involved in the arts in my local area
  • More freelance work, if at all possible
  • Save up for a new car
  • Learn how to use Adobe Illustrator
  • Update my CV
  • Go out walking everyday and enjoy the beautiful area I live in
  • Get experience working in schools to fulfil that goal of teaching in the near future
  • Run a photoshop class locally - I’d love to do this but not quite sure how?
  • Get a job - *cries*
  • Read novels - I never have time to read so then I’ll have no excuse


What shall the future bring?

Thursday, 16 October 2014

I'M BACK

So lately...

EMPLOYMENT! I’m working in a photography studio designing wedding albums and it’s awesome - weddings are fascinating. I feel a real sense of duty working on something so significant. It’s really rewarding when the couple come to collect it and are delighted with the album. So thankful for a job doing something I actually like!
I GRADUATED! First Class Honours. Three years at University of Ulster was worth it all in the end. I would do it alllll again, I loved it so much. Graduation day was probably one of my favourite days of my life. Thank you to my brilliant lecturers, tutors and wonderful classmates, I'll miss everyone so much.
NEW YORK! In July our family went to America, and it was incredible! New York is just like how it looked in the movies. We saw all the sights then went on a Caribbean cruise too! It was UNREAL, I really want to go on another cruise. Food...good. Sun...good. Best holiday ever.
WEDDING! Not me, ha, but one of my high school friends got married in August. She’s the same age as me! We are all getting so old. It was a brilliant day catching up with old friends. Congratulations to Noelle and David! 
CONTAINER! All my friends came home from their studies abroad so we had a big reunion party, in the almighty container of course. I didn’t realise how much I missed their faces until we were all together again.
QUEENS! I started a Masters in Msc Educational Multimedia at Queens University, Belfast. I’m only a few weeks in but I’m loving it already. The whole education theory is new to me (since I previously studied Media) but it’s interesting and definitely a worthwhile course. Our practical workshops focus on interactivity in design (like making apps and websites) so as you can imagine I’m super psyched for that already!

WOOP WOOP LIFE IS AWESOME.

In other news...

NETFLIX! I watch far too much T.V normally but now that I’m subscribed and paying for it I feel obliged to watch even more. I heard others say about how Netflix was addictive but I didn’t believe them. I was wrong.

IPAD! I never buy myself anything expensive but Amazon had a sale on and how could I resist...sadly it increases the Netflix watching experience.

CRAPPY TV! Gossip Girl. Kardashians. Made in Chelsea. Anything on E! Devastated by the death of Joan Rivers - no more Fashion Police. :(

DIET! Lol I know I’m always dieting, but my cousin’s wedding is next week and I don’t want to feel like a whale beside my relatives.

AUTUMN! It’s getting colder and colder and I’M EXCITED FOR WINTER.

CAPTAIN AMERICCAAA! My enthusiasm for The Winter Soldier intensified after I watched it TWICE on the plane going to America. Then it escalated again when I showed it to Emboot...whoops. *cough* Sebastian Stan *cough*

HIMYM FINALE! No. No. NO. 

GROBAN! Josh is dating KAT DENNINGS!! Two of my favourite celebrities are dating EACH OTHER. I cannot cope.

BOOKS! I’m terrible and don’t read, so I made it my new month’s resolution in August to read more books! And since I have eBooks on my iPad I don’t have an excuse. I’m still on my first one though I’m a really slow reader. (Cure for the Common Life, Max Lucado - it’s great).

yoooooooo I’m sorry if you read all that crap but another resolution is to try and blog at least once a month...stay tuned kidos.

- Claudia XOXO (Gossip Girl)

Wednesday, 19 February 2014

TWENTY ONE

Evening all,

Already into my fourth week at uni, boy time is going fast! Currently working on my dissertation - focusing on Identity and Fan Culture, I hope you aren’t surprised about that. At first I thought it was super cliché to write about Fandom, but hey it interests me and current, so I’m having a blast to research it. However books are a problem, since most I’ve looked at are 2011 and onwards. Fan Culture is quite a new topic, so books relating to modern fandoms like Doctor Who or Supernatural are a clean fortune. I paid £55 for one book, broke the bank and broke my heart! 

Anyway, University has been fun this year - it’s been busy but I’m happy. I had my 21st on the 6th Feb. It was quite low-key but I didn’t want to do much when my friends were away, so I had a little family gathering instead. I had a tea-party and cake night for my granny, aunts etc. It actually was really nice. Plus Mum got me THE BEST CAKE EVER. See the pictures!! I also went out bowling and cinema with my classmates which was really lovely. Good fun indeed.

I received dollars mostly as gifts, which was appreciated for New York in July! I’m very excited. But before that I have my End of Year show (presenting my work) and of course, my Graduation! Also other fun things are booked, including Panic! At The Disco and Comic Con in Belfast. The next few months be a hoot! 

So yeah, I’m sorry this has been brief but life has been good! 


- Claudia x

Friday, 4 October 2013

LIFE UPDATE: SEPT/OCT


Hey - I’m writing this post in Starbucks in Belfast. To be honest I feel a bit of a prat sitting in by the window with my Macbook on my knee, sipping my Caramel Creme Blend. (Yum!)
Quick life update. I fear now that I’m in final year I won’t have any time to blog due to coursework/dissertation so I’m making most of this opportunity. I apologise in advance if I don’t post anything.

Final Year
Dun dun dun! My university course is coming to an end. I can’t believe I’ve just started my third and final year - honestly, I would want to do it all again. I really don’t want to leave! No plans as yet as to what I’m going to do for the rest of my life. Right now, I’m just taking it a day at a time. Back into halls this year and loving it. It’s so handy living on campus and my flatmates are lovely. I think it’s going to be a great year. 

Obsessions
I have fallen back in love with Fall Out Boy. The new album ‘Save Rock and Roll’, is okay I guess, but they’ve changed a lot over hiatus and I prefer their older work. Infinity on High is my all-time favourite album and it constantly plays in my car.
Also have got hooked on watching Youtube videos - completely adore Crabstickz, Danisnotonfire and Amazing Phil. I’ve been watching them everyday, so funny! Reminds me of when I was 16 and constantly watched Shane Dawson and Charlieissocoollike. The good old days.

Fashion
Hoorah! It’s finally Autumn! The weather is getting colder which means jumpers, boots, coats, HATS! I don’t really like summer weather (too warm so I die) so I get really excited because it’s coming into my favourite time of year. Was walking through Debenhams last month and a brand caught my eye called ‘H! by Henry Holland’ I’ve heard of him before but since that day I’ve fallen in love with his clothes. I’ve got my eyes on this green coat, it really is beautiful - I’ve tried it on like 4 times now, haha. The t-shirts and jumpers are also very cute and reasonable, I’m bound to buy one soon! It’s hard to save money. ~_~

Life of Claudia
I’m very excited to announce that i’m ~hopefully~ going on holidays next year. Woo! Instead of having a 21st party, Mum said I can go anywhere in the world for a family holiday. My first choice was Japan/Korea but she wormed her way out of that...hmm.. so the second choice was NEW YORK!! Nothing planned or sorted yet but I’m very excited for next summer! :D

Enjoy your weekend everyone!!

- Claudia





Sunday, 10 February 2013

20

Last Wednesday marked the unfortunate end of my teenage years, that’s right - I am now twenty! I find this very hard to believe, but believe me, I have no intentions of becoming a sensible and responsible adult anytime soon.

I was fortunate to have more than one party too! Since my birthday fell during the week I celebrated one with family, one with university friends and one with my home friends.
On Tuesday 5th, Hannah, Emma, Rebecca, Seb and myself went to Yoko Noodle Bar - a popular and delicious restaurant at Coleraine Jet Center. They didn’t disappoint, as my Crispy Honey Chili Chicken was amazing!

For desert, I chose brownie (they gave me two, wow) which was served on a plate which gave out steam?? We were amazed by this. 
Following that, we went bowling at the Jet Center which was so much fun, best bowling trip in ages! 
After Christian Union the next evening, I was finally allowed to open my presents! My housemates and classmates joined together and bought me a whole pile of gifts - which ranged from Sherlock on DVD, jewelry and One Direction merchandise- to a comb, M&Ms and a hot water bottle! 
On Saturday, my friends back home went to Italian restaurant, Villa Vinci in Newcastle. (Yes I have ate out a lot this week..) The 12 of us enjoyed a choice of pizzas, pastas, burgers and spaghetti bolognese. I was surprised by a birthday cake, with many thanks to Kerri and Elizabeth!
Outside I was target to the Birthday Bumps. Oh dear...
We returned to my house for a night of party games - probably the best games of Mafia, Fishbowl and Consequences played ever!


Thank you to...
Hannah St - for INCREDIBLE present choosing and organising.
Emma H - for choosing the ever-so-gorgeous One Direction poster.
Rebecca - for choosing the most amazing cracked nail polish.
Sebastian - for a wicked game of The Sims and Eyetoy on Playstation.
Alison, Danielle and Shannon - for an amazing meal cooked on Wednesday.
Charlene - for a lovely walk on my birthday with Hannah in Portstewart.
Rachel - for the really cute scarf!
Tina - for her impression of James Bond (I’m an actor...) haha!
Aimee - for such a pretty present, especially the little book!
Hannah S - for the most amusing conversation at dinner on Saturday.
Laura - for buying me a beautiful gift even though she couldn’t attend the party.
Elizabeth - for being absolutely wonderful all the time.
John - for creating the most disturbing consequences game ever played.
Mark - for making everyone laugh with his transvestite Beyonce impression?
Kerri - for deleting all my photos!! LOL jk - for buying me a beautiful hat!!
Kathryn - for doing the most hilarious impression of Stephen Hawking I’ve ever seen.
Alison and Hannah (for buying me the most beautiful bird ring!
Emma - for never failing at buying me the most disturbing and brilliant presents. AHH.

Thank you to everyone who made my 20th birthday one to remember! 

- Claudia

Tuesday, 8 January 2013

HIGHLIGHTS OF 2012


Best Moments of 2012




  • Zumba Container Party (yes, that was January!)
  • Meeting The Wanted after their concert in Belfast
  • Seeing The Dark Knight Rises (twice)
  • London with Emma to see EXO-K, Baker Street and Andy Warhol paintings
  • Singstar Container Night - reliving the golden days!
  • Learning how to create Motion Graphics and my Doctor Who website
  • Leading two girls to Christ during Fused Summer Scheme
  • Art Night at Kerri's house!
  • 'Thorsdays'
  • Roadtrips with the IMAmates listening to Mentallll Breaakkkkerrrrr
  • Seeing BIGBANG in London!







❐ Biggest Achievement of the Year:
Learning to swallow tablets!
❐ Biggest Failure:
Missing an exam.
❐ Happiest Moment:
BIGBANG coming on stage at Wembley Arena.
❐ Saddest Moment:
Funerals - Granny Green and Great Granny Gordon.
❐ Biggest Shock:
Hearing Gangnam Style by PSY on UK Radio for the first time.
❐ Best Purchase:
2 pairs of Moschino jeans on sale!!
❐ Greatest Musical Discoveries:
Josh Groban and Hans Zimmer.






❐ Best Song of the Year:
The Chaser by Infinite followed by Mental Breaker - Block B in a close second.
❐ Best MV of the Year:
Fantastic Baby - BIGBANG
❐ Best Film of the Year:
The Dark Knight Rises, of course!
❐ Greatest Discoveries of the Year:
Sherlock and Sweetcorn.
❐ Biggest Addiction:
Buying and selling stuff on eBay over the summer.
❐ Favourite Celebrity Figures:
Matt Smith and Alex Day.









That was fun!
- Love Claudia x

Friday, 23 November 2012

FED-UP

Whats on your mind lately.
I worry about my workload at university - I just can’t WAIT for Christmas holidays because I feel mentally and emotionally drained. My parents are actually in America at the minute so I’ve been thinking of them a lot. I can’t wait for them to get back - like I thought it would be fun living up here, but right now I’m on my own and that’s not fun at all!


What's the best thing going for you right now?
OH MY GOSH I never said I was going to see BIGBANG did I?? So that’s probably the most exciting thing happening in my life right now. They are coming to London in December and Emma, Kerri and I are flying over to see them. I’ve never been so excited to something for a while - shame all this work needs to be done before I go though!!

Describe a typical day in your current life:
  • Wake up early.
  • Quiet Time.
  • Do readings for course.
  • Eat breakfast.
  • Do practical work - Photoshop or InDesign.
  • Mess about on Tumblr/Facebook/Twitter frequently.
  • Do more work.
  • Lunch.
  • More Work.
  • Tea.
  • Clean.
  • Dinner.
  • Shower.
  • Mess about/socialise until I’m too tired.
  • Repeat.

DO YOU SEE WHAT MY LIFE HAS BECOME!? Actually can’t stand it anymore! 

What would you like to accomplish this year?
I’ve had a weird old year with it’s ups and downs. I don’t have any goals for the end of this year because it’s already November and near the end of 2012, so it’ll basically get into the routine of university life and work hard. Like, really hard. I’m kinda scared actually - This semester we have two practical modules instead of one, and Hannah and I have to do a group project together. I’m really afraid I’ll get depressed again due to feeling so anxious or else rot away in my room because I’m only on campus two days a week. Sigh! I’ll keep you posted on this one. 

Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
24 years old: I shall hopefully be a Bachelor of Arts with a job somewhere - I really don’t know what I want to specialise in yet, I haven’t made up my mind yet.
29 years old: Engaged maybe or married with a house. I was at this gorgeous house a couple of weeks ago and it’s made me realise how much I would love to build and design my own house. I’m being ambitious but sure, why not!
35 years old: I live in optimism that God will bless me with a loving husband and children. I don’t like being too positive here incase his plan is that I live alone (in my giant house lol) with, as Emma said, 100 westies. (Although I don’t plan to own any more westies after Toby - one’s a nightmare to look after, never-mind 100. Poo everywhere.) But if a family is part of his plan, I will be a very happy lady.

I don’t really know how to predict what I want to do because I know there’s no way 3 or 4 years ago would I have known that I would be where I am right now! So shall we wait and see? 

Stay tuned,
Claudia

Monday, 15 October 2012

HIDDEN AWAY

Hello,
Just a quick update to show I am still alive. I would apologise that I have got out of my habit of my weekly update but my hands are quite full with stuff at the minute, so really it couldn’t be helped. 

University
So yes, I have returned to the North and am currently habituating in a beautiful rented house in Portstewart with five other girls. I really like it, though I don’t know if I love it yet to be honest. Like second year is rather average compared to first year - where everything is new and exciting. Last year was all about making new friends, this year I think it’s more about maintaining the friendships that matter. This is an odd adjustment to get used to, it’s more settled and in some ways, less exciting.
Although I’m definitely enjoying myself, I’ve had many hilarious moments and terrific memories so far, and quite a few pictures to prove it too.
The work load for my course is quite noticeably heavier than last year and it takes a lot of effort to stay on top of it. Lots of reading, writing and practical work. I’m afraid I won’t be able to keep track of it which could bring my mark down. I’m trying my best though, I don’t want to to start getting stressed out. Like I’m only here for another year (my course is a 3 year course) then I’ll be graduating, it’s really flying in, so I want to enjoy every minute!

Life
My life seems to be revolving around two things at the minute: university and my own life. That may sound incredibly selfish, but I’m trying to get my life into order. I’ve been spending a lot of time by myself praying and pondering, because I feel there’s so much I want to do, but I don’t know where to begin.
After working and socialising, I just want to sleep. It sucks. Any other spare time I have, I put into over-analysing everything and it’s actually cracking me up because my brain doesn’t have enough power left to THINK that much. It’s preventing me from enjoying the moment and loving life. Aragh! It’s so hard to explain. When I make more sense I shall return to this confusing topic.


Things That Aren’t Nice:
I shall start with the bad list then we can end the post positively. 
  • Joseph Gordon-Levitt’s make-up in Looper - NOO he doesn’t LOOK right, why mess up his beautiful face? 
  • Confliction - Although we have great times together, a six person house can be... let’s say...tense. Especially with girls . Sometimes I feel a negative aura, where people are just in a mood for a good complain and I hate it! It brings me down. Also unnecessary shouting and noise in general within the house is unpleasant.
  • Posters falling My Portstewart bedroom is exposed to various temperatures throughout the day - from ice-cold in the early afternoon to moderate heat from 7:30pm-8:30pm. This has a horrible effect on the blue-tac which holds my posters in my room up. At least one poster a day has fallen off my wall since term started. The slight dent in the Inception one breaks my heart.

Things I Like:
When I’m not being crazy, sad or self-reflective, I do like some things. Recently I like:
  • Josh Groban - I started listening to Josh Groban’s albums on Spotify and now I am totally hooked! Yes, I have a free month subscription to Spotify and now have realised I cannot live without it.
  • Tumblr - Eugh why is this website so addictive. I have 17 posts of Joseph Gordon-Levitt queued from now to Sunday - that’s not normal behaviour, Claudia.
  • Weather - it's now my favourite time of year again! It's dark and cold, it makes me happy, despite the lack of heating in the house. Hat season has begun!
  • New Friends - I’ve built relationships with people that I’ve realised I no longer can live without. I look at them and think, wow, you are SO amazing - I actually love you! (In a friendly way of course, haha)

Yay I feel better after blogging!

Night night,
Claudia

Thursday, 13 September 2012

ANALYSIS

A few more...
                     
What do like and dislike about yourself:
☺ I like that I make myself laugh.
☺ I like that I don’t follow the crowd.
☺ I like that I am polite.
☺ I like the way I style my clothes together.
☺ I like how silly I am.
☺ I like that I don’t care what other people think of me.

☹ I dislike that I am not skinny.
☹ I dislike that I can be incredibly vain.
☹ I dislike that I look so derpy in unexpected photographs.
☹ I dislike how much I criticise myself.
☹ I dislike that I cannot share anything.
☹ I dislike that I have a short temper.

Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Social Networking and eBay - to live without it would benefit my well-being and my bank account.
                    
Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Tea - this really doesn’t need an explanation because tea is love.

What is your favorite part of your body and why?
My favourite part of my body is my face - it’s rather photogenic and acne-free.

What do you think people misunderstand most about you?
They think I’m a rich snob because of my stuck-up face, the way I dress and the stuff I have. Or they think I’m very quiet and nice - that’s not really true either. I don’t want to be one of those boring, sweet girls with no personality...mehhh.

What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
I wish I could dance. I am extremely jealous of people of people who just look so cool dancing. I feel super awkward, clumsy and embarrassed - I’ll probably end up doing the Cha Cha Slide at my wedding reception.

Tuesday, 4 September 2012

ABOUT ME (MEME TIME!)


Post a picture of yourself and introduce yourself:
This was taken today so it’s as recent as it’s gonna get. Hello I am Claudia - but you all should know that by now. I’m hoping to get these new glasses, do you like them?

List 10 random facts about yourself:
♦ I really, really love baked beans.
♦ I have OCD when it comes to matching and arranging things.
♦ I always have my nails painted.
♦ I’d say I have about 300 photos up on my walls at home.
♦ I love doing the weekly grocery shop.
♦ I get really excited getting post.
♦ I fall for people far too easily.
♦ My pet-hate is when someone has the same stuff as me or copies me.
♦ My favourite time of year is between October - December.
♦ I only got my ears pierced last year - when I was 18.

List 3 people who have influenced you and describe how.
I shall only list one. This person is my Mother - who has been continually loving, positive, realistic and helped me make many important decisions in my life.

If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
Invisibility! #stalker

Describe your most embarrassing moment/An awkward moment that happened today or in the past:
I slipped and fell on stage in one of my high school’s musicals a couple of years ago - I usually say this is my embarrassing moment but the funny thing is I don’t remember it happening. 

Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
Spiders - This is a rather obvious one because so many people don’t like spiders. They are gross.
Dark, enclosed spaces - I think have a problem because both my Granny and Mum are claustrophobic in small enclosed places. I go weak at the knees and panic a lot when I’m in the dark and I’m ten times worse in a dark, small closed-in area. So I think I am claustrophobic. :(
Dying in a car accident - When I’m out on my own driving I always think of Jordan and it scares me if something like that happened to me. I mean this in the least selfish way possible. 

Describe your relationship with your parents.
Really good actually - which I’ve always been very thankful for. Mum and I would be very close - we would have a lot in common and would talk a lot. She’s like an older sister in a way because she’s more modern than most women her age. She expects good behaviour from Jared and I and would discipline us fairly, not that we’d do much wrong anyway.
However she talks too much though, and always thinks she’s right, even if she’s wrong. Both these can be very tiresome and causes problems in the house, more with Jared than me. (Because he also thinks he’s right, so there is conflict.) Having said that, she’s good fun to be with and a brilliant mother because I can’t imagine I would be the easiest person to live with either!
Dad’s more quiet around the house - he always looks like he is deep in thought. He can be very amusing and talks a lot when he’s in the right notion. He is very, very kind - his gruff exterior makes that difficult to see sometimes though. That’s not a bad thing though, I know his heart is in the right place. Me and him have had good laughs.
He works hard, probably too hard. Sometimes I wish that he would spend more time with us - and just abandon what must be done and take the opportunity when it’s here. Yes I understand work is important but it saddens me. That’s what annoys me most about my parents. I almost need to kick them up the ass just to get a day arranged to do anything. Dad can’t take off work often. We haven’t had a holiday for years. Surely we should make the most of these precious times together before it’s too late? It’s so difficult to get them motivated to do something extravagant or out of the ordinary - they are so set in their ways! It’s very frustrating.
However they both work hard and want to thank them for being amazing parents, sending and funding us to do everything from swimming, music lessons and speech and drama, prevailing us to do things we thought we could never accomplish and finally always always supporting, loving and caring for us.

If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
*Shrugs* I really don’t know - I can’t imagine myself living anywhere in particular and the idea of living far away never appealed to me. Sorry, I am terribly boring.

Favorite Quotes:
"When looking for a husband or wife, here’s my advice: Run towards the Lord as fast as you can. If someone can keep up with you, introduce yourself." - Professor J. Jung

I read this quote frequently because there’s so much depth and wisdom in it that applies to my own life right now. I’m at that age where I maybe, maybe have or am about to meet the man I will marry - imagine that? Although this concept constantly meddles with my mind, I need to remember that God is in charge, and he will provide if the timing is right. This quote is perfect when my mind gets carried away and I forget that it's all up to God what happens.

“She is out there. My Cinderella. She is real. She exists. I pray for her constantly. May God satisfy the desires of her heart, draw her close, consume her. May He claim her passions, her identity, her refuge, her hopes, her strengths and weaknesses, every fiber of her being. May she treasure and cherish her Saviour more than anything of this world and cling to His will with every ounce of her stamina. By all that she is, does, and strives to be, may He draw near to her and she to Him.” - Adam Young

This is another encouraging quote and messes with my emotions quite a lot when I read it. Maybe this is another #Claudiaisfussy moment but wow, to find a guy that would think of his future wife like that would be glorious. I simply don’t want to waste my life on other guys if I knew he cared for me like this! It gives me goosebumps.

If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
I would like to be a parrot because they are colourful and can fly. 

What is your dream job, and why?
I have a number of jobs that I secretly would like to do - I don’t tell many people of these plans because I don’t know what I’m meant to be doing with my life and I’m not really a career-ambitious person. However I shall spill the beans with you today since it’s part of the meme:
Teacher - Believe it or not, I’ve always had it in my mind to be a teacher. I love kids - they are so cool and I want to inspire them! The whole idea of teaching something I like really appeals to me though - like even teaching others to use photoshop or computer programs would be class, because I would be passionate at what I’m teaching - and that’s important.
Boss of a Big Business
- I’m a good leader when I know what I’m talking about. I would love to be a boss of a magazine company or something I actually care about. Y‘know, just looking good and bossing people around - a bit like Miranda Priestly. Power is fun. And I may have money too, which would be a nice bonus. But most importantly I would have a career at something I’m good at and know what I’m talking about.
Part Time Graphic Designer - Although I love the idea of a big office job, I would be just as happy (actually, probably happier because I wouldn’t be dying of stress) being a housewife and doing some part-time graphic/web design and animation. Like my own little mini business. So I’d have a bit of income but can work when suits me, and also would be able to keep house and spend time with my children.

Yey.

Tuesday, 21 August 2012

TIMING


Right, it’s time for another catch-up post. 
Fused:
Team Adventurers!
I was reading old posts of mine and saw how I was unsure if I was going to do Fused, the Summer Bible Club which runs for two weeks at the end of July in Newcastle. Now, I am SO GLAD I did! It was absolutely marvelous! I met lots of cool people on the team and felt I fitted in so much better than last year. I even used my talents to help Jo to make t-shirts for our team, the Adventurers. (left) They look so class, is it weird I feel proud? Also the fortnight helped my walk with God; which I was worried about before I left because I felt I wouldn’t be able to teach others if I was neglecting my own faith.
The kids were little sweethearts, we helped with the Primary 4-7s, so they were old enough to listen and behave but still were young and easy to talk to. The girls loved my jewelry and wanted to try on my rings - it was so cute. I had my own Small Group this year - a group of round 7 or 8 girls. This really boosted my confidence because I usually turn into a big, nervous mess when I have to lead anything. By the end of the two weeks, three of the girls gave their life to Christ, two of them which I prayed with. I was so emotional when I came home I sobbed - it’s such an extraordinary thing to witness and share in someone’s life. Other kids made professions too, please keep these kids in your prayers.
With some of my Small Group
If that wasn’t enough for my brain to handle - I SPOKE at the front during the two Josh’s talk...VOLUNTARILY. If you know me at all, there’s no flipping way I would want to speak in front of a crowd unless I had to - but I just felt the timing was right, or else I was losing my mind.
Jeremy, Jo and myself were asked to speak about how God transformed our lives.
Even as I was standing up, I was still unsure what I was going to say, and as I look back on it, I hardly remember what I DID say - basically I spoke about settling into university - having to make new friends and rely on God when alone. I couldn’t have possibly constructed all those sentences in my head logically and articulate them clearly without the power of the Holy Spirit. God is so good. 
So glad I filled in that form back in May time - or else I wouldn’t have be involved in two of the most wonderful weeks of my summer! Time well spent!
The Dark Knight Rises:
Haha I’m very late with this one! I am a massive fan of great GREAT films - like blockbuster films - I guess most people are but it seems to be that most of my favourite films are legendary ones (the other genres would include Classics, Disney or Asian cinema) So naturally The Dark Knight trilogy is included in this legendary list. (Other films include Inception, The Social Network, Slumdog Millionaire and Harry Potter.)
I was very, very excited about this one from geeking out so much in 2008 after seeing the second of the series. It was later I also realised that Batman Begins was the first of the trilogy - not sure how I didn’t realise that before, whoops! 
It was outstanding as expected - it was like a big yummy sandwich with all my favourite actors - Christian Bale (with his amazing sexy mouth) Joseph Gordon-Levitt, Anne Hathaway, Tom Hardy, Gary Oldman and Michael Caine. Then to top it all off with a small cameo of the wonderful Cillian Murphy as Dr. Crane. (I actually love that man - he’s very charismatic and so striking, could watch him for hours.) So yeah, amazing. I hope to see it again before I go back to university - so if anybody wants to go... hit me up.


The Amazing Andrew Garfield:
Let’s put it this way - it was a mistake seeing The Dark Knight Rises before The Amazing Spiderman. I was very excited because I am a long time Andrew Garfield fan and have waited two years after hearing he was cast as the lead. I really did enjoy this though, it was better than I was expecting... but maybe I’m just being biased. No seriously, it’s worth a watch.
Granny Gordon:
Unfortunately I have even more bad news since my last update. My Great Granny, Ethel (also known as The Granulator!) passed away at the grand age of 93 on the 11th August 2012. The pain was pretty raw since Granny Green’s death so it was horrible that we had to go through it all again. She had fell and broke her hip a few days before, but wasn’t well enough for an operation so she was in hospital. She also suffered from dementia and other health issues, so it appeared she was getting worse each day.
Thankfully I took up the opportunity of visiting her in hospital the day before she died. Even though her condition was deteriorating, I wanted to see her, I was kinda scared though. Astonishing to us all, she was her usual witty, humourous and slightly forgetful self! It was a joy to see her like that, and being able to remember her that way is something I’m incredibly thankful for. She will be sorely missed. 
Family:
Despite losing two members of my family this summer, I feel like I’ve built many new relationships with other family members. Here the impact of death has brought the Green family/McCullough family closer. To be honest, before I wouldn’t really have called my relatives family - because I never saw them and they knew very little about me, same vice-versa. Poor Granny Green would have done anything for the four of us to socialise with the others, but it was only through her death did that become possible. Same with the McCullough family - it was through Granny Gordon’s death brought us altogether as one. Hopefully these relationships will last. It was God’s perfect timing that Charles (my cousin), his wife Kate and 1 year old Stanley arrived from England and were able to see Granny Gordon for the last time, the weekend before she died. It was also my first time meeting Stanley, this was exciting because we haven’t had a baby in the family since Jared was born. My other cousins Gregor and Gareth and their ladies, Sharon and Kirsty also arrived down that weekend too so it was a big get-together for all of us. Above is a photo of us all that weekend, hoorah.

Titanic:
I visited the Titanic Belfast last week with my Parents and Jared. This is a new building opened this year to mark the 100 year anniversary of the sinking of the world’s biggest ship. This is situated in the Titanic Quarter, beside where the Titanic’s was built. The building has 6 floors of galleries containing a variety of interactive media including CGI, film, audio, artifacts and replicas. This was interesting for me. Each gallery was well designed and used varied ways to display the historical details of the ship’s construction, launch, maiden voyage and tragic end.
It certainly was a visitor experience - the whole place was packed too. It was a great day out, but wouldn’t be something you’d return to for a few years at least. I think if you’re really interested in history it’ll be very enjoyable to read everything (like my dad), otherwise it’s a great day out - recommended!

Yay,
- Claudia

Saturday, 18 August 2012

CONTROVERSIAL #2

A book you’ve read that changed your views on something:
To be honest I don’t read that much, but the last book which really made me think was called “I Kissed Dating Goodbye” by Joshua Harris. Amy lent me it after a few interesting conversations about Christian dating last summer. Although I felt some of the things in the book was a bit... extreme, Harris presented some excellent points which challenged me. I felt that this book changed my outlook on dating and the way I looked at guys - and trust me, that’s a thing I’ve struggled with for a long time. It also reassured me that it was okay to be single (a typical concern of many young female adults!) Ladies, maybe if you’re having similar concerns as me, have a look at this.




Your views on gay marriage:
I’ve been staring at this question since I started this meme and was wondering was it a mistake that I didn’t delete it when I had the chance to. Honestly I still don’t know how to answer this. The whole topic of homosexuality and homophobia is a heated debate right now in the world and I can honestly say I don’t really have an opinion, not a valid one anyway. I’m a Christian, which evidently throws me to one side of the debate, but i’ll just try and clear up what I want to say and be done with the subject forever.

Christians: I understand why many Christians are upset and disagree with homosexuality, never-mind gay marriage. Personally, I find it extremely disturbing how quickly the world is adjusting and accepting to this. It’s one of many signs of the end of the world. People don’t fear God anymore, which is frightening and tragic too. I also think it’s okay that some Christians feel strongly want to speak out and express their beliefs. It’s what they believe - free speech, eh? However I also feel some so called ‘Christians’ are expressing views, which are NOT Christ-like - setting a bad reputation for other Christians and making us all look crazy. We aren't all irritating bigots, I hope.

Gay Support: What pisses me off is how Christians (regular ones... not extreme, mad ones) are more commonly being mocked and ridiculed for standing up for what they believe in. (Another sign of the end times, by the way.) You support gay rights? Fine! There’s no need to criticise those who don’t. You don’t? Fair enough. Less of the population have a religious or spiritual basis so they are not bound by religious rules. Therefore it’s their personal choice to support gay rights or not. So I understand why many people are enthusiastic to support it - they see no wrong in it. One thing I do not like is how during debates on this topic, usually online, secularists twist random Bible verses such as this. Completely taking it out of context, probably with little understanding or research on the verses at all - making a JOKE out of the word of God! This offends me and tires my weary brain. How difficult it is to LOVE people like this! Actually makes me want to cry: in sadness and frustration. This is why I hate this debate so much.

Homosexuality: I think being gay is a sin. That is why so many people, religious folk in particular, are against it. I disagree with it because God hates sin. But! Gay people/supporters, don’t feel that homosexuality is the worst sin. (which it is made out to be most of the time) All sin is equal in God’s eyes. If I dated a non-Christian - that would be just as equal of a sin as if I dated a woman. If a man committed a murder, it would be no worse if a man kissed another man. Then again, why would these secular people care what God thinks anyway? I'm fully aware of the reasons and don't want to be ignorant of what I'm trying to talk about. And another thing, God DOES NOT hate gay people - I can't stand it when people mouth off that he does - he loves us all, no matter what. I don't hate gay people either. I know a few gays from school/uni and they some of the most lovely, friendly and hilarious people I've ever met! There's one in particular I would be lost without - I don't love him any less for what he is, I actually have more respect for him for keeping me in his life.


Gay Marriage: I disagree with homosexuality so therefore I disagree with gay marriage too. God makes it clear it’s man and woman were meant to be together. Typical response expected -  I don’t intend to start an argument, because as much as the whole thing distresses me, I don’t see the point in fighting with everyone about it. Again - if there's no belief in God in their lives, I don't understand why people wouldn't be campaigning for the legalisation of gay marriage. Same with mixed-race marriage, I guess - it's now widely accepted after many years of individuals being discriminated against.
The definition of love has been warped and altered so much, I can imagine there are many, many people in the world who don’t understand what Love truly is. For me, this song by Jaeson Ma hits the nail on the head - even Bruno Mars sings in it too!

Conclusion of mini-rant: I believe the acceptance of homosexuality and gay marriage is just another win for secularism and Satan - this makes me sad. I do not share the same views as many others but that doesn't mean I despise them for it. I don’t think being gay is worse than anything else, but it scares me what the future generations will soon find acceptance in, and what God thinks of it all.

What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
I know I shouldn’t be laughing at this but LOL. I seriously hope I won’t up pregnant, until the time is right anyway. I really wouldn’t like to think of the consequences if I ended up pregnant today...I’d be pretty embarrassed to be honest.

Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
To be quite honest, yes I have. Y’know in your teenage years where it’s cool to be all emo and melancholy. Like it was more like, "eugh I wanna kill myself life sucks what's the point in all this crap" Not that I would have done anything, definitely not! Personally I think it’s a very selfish choice for anyone to commit suicide - don’t they think of those who have been left behind? Coping with death is a horrible, horrible experience - thankfully the three funerals I have been to were not intentional deaths - a car accident, cancer sufferer and old age. I couldn’t possibly get my head around someone PURPOSIVELY ending their life. But I guess there are some reasons that are harder to understand? Anybody reading this - I pray you’ll not attempt such a thing - yes life can be difficult, we make mistakes and sometimes it just feels like things keep getting worse - but there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel.

What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
Jordan’s death - nothing is quite like the pain of accepting that someone who is the same age as you is now buried in the ground, someone who you’ll never see again on this earth, someone who you’ve spent 7 years together in school with you won’t speak to again, someone who was one of your best friends. Everything became different after the accident - our whole friendship group changed dramatically. I found that very difficult to come to terms with too.

What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
Many, many fashion trends - the one I will point out today is leggings being worn as trousers - weird, saggy bum! And often a pants line too, not good ladies, doesn't matter how comfortable it is - sort your wardrobe out.


Tuesday, 14 August 2012

CONTROVERSIAL #1


Gonna answer all the dangerous/controversial/awkward questions in a single post.

If you bumped into the person you dislike or if you were stuck with them in an elevator, what would you do or say?
Well I’d probably try to be civil and either say hello, exchange a nod or just say nothing at all if they don’t make eye contact.

Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
There are certain people who spring to mind here. I find it difficult to forgive people who bullied and made fun of me when I was younger, around 10-14 years old. And no, I can’t say I have forgiven for them yet - I know it sounds ridiculous but words hurt. I still hear those harsh words ring in my ears when I’m feeling crappy. I remember not being able to sleep at night, sick with worry thinking of the next day of school. And if I see them, I feel such a burning anger for making my life so horrible, I can hardly look them in the eye! I hope I will be able to forgive them in the near future.

Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

I notice as you get older this happens more regularly. It becomes ten times harder to keep in touch with people, and there’s also some you just have to let go because there is no room for them in your life. This is quite sad really. The ones who have drifted I can’t say I miss much - then there are others who I don’t see but if we would meet up, it would be just like the way it used to be - then there’s some I meet and feel so awkward I can hardly make conversation with. I was afraid I would lose contact with James since we left for university, but thankfully we haven’t drifted apart, which I'm very thankful for!

Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
There are a few people who I’ve met in my lifetime who I really didn’t like or wish I never knew. But I think there’s a reason for everything - even if I didn’t impact their life, it maybe was showing me who were good friends for me to have and who were not.

What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
What’s this now? Religion and politics are in the same question?!
Religion - As most of you know, I am a ‘religious’ person. I have been blessed in a loving Christian family who involved me in church and which also influenced my morals and lifestyle choices. I gave my life to Christ when I was a child, probably round 7 or 8 years old. I never fell away from this faith - and still live by these moral principles today. I don’t drink, smoke, sleep around...etc. It amazes me how stuck by these values for so long - it’s by faith obviously. God has provided me with such a strong faith and I’m not easily swayed, plus this kind of lifestyle never appealed to me anyway. I wouldn’t label my faith a religion, although it probably looks like it is, it’s more a personal relationship. The closer you are to God, other things such as relationships with others, struggles and worries are easier to deal with. I think I would be a paranoid, stressed and horrible human being if I didn‘t have God in my life to conquer my obstacles. I think it takes an open mind to have a faith in something, any religion actually. I can understand that it doesn’t appeal to everyone. It’s not an easy choice though either. I see why people want to live their own life, which saddens me, because I see how powerful and wonderful God works in my life. But flip, I could talk about how God has transformed my life for hours, but it’s something you gotta feel for yourself.
Politics - I am afraid I have a lack of knowledge and understanding in all things political. I wish I even understood what it’s all about - so I would have an opinion. But since I don’t, I shall say nothing at all.

Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Personally I don’t understand why people drink or smoke, never-mind do drugs. Purposively damaging your body never quite appealed to me! Well I actually think it’s very sad when I see friends, flatmates and fellow students away out to nightclubs or parties. I don’t understand this lifestyle at all. Again, I feel I shouldn’t criticise because I’ve never even been to a nightclub, bar or party. Or drunk an alcoholic beverage for that matter. I choose not to drink because I think if I started, I would not stop. There’s a few reasons actually but I’d rather not bore you all to tears. And for drugs, well drugs are stupid, just no thank you.

What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
A few people do spring to mind unfortunately. In my childhood I was a child who was rarely shouted at (not by my parents though) so when someone actually told me off about something insignificant or said something mean, I tended to held a grudge against them forever. I think I reacted like this because I’m kinda sensitive, believe it or not. Although I try to hide that side of me. I’d rather not list these individuals here because it seems petty. I need to forgive these people for what they said, but more importantly be forgiven for holding these pointless grudges against them.

Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Eugh! What a horrible question! It’s worse when you’ve already been through a similar scenario before. Thankfully Jordan and I were not fighting before she had her car accident. (I thank God that we weren’t, because we definitely had our tense moments in school.) To be honest I don’t even want to answer this one, I pray none of us will have to go through a similar situation again.

Have you ever did something bad or lied to your parents but got away with it?
No I can’t say I have, haha! My mum can read me like a book. And by a book, I probably would be a children’s book. Very, very easy to read.

The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

I believe I am still alive today because God feels my work on earth is not yet complete. And what this reason is...only he knows. I would LOVE to know what he wants me to do, but for now I will live by his word everyday and believe everything will fall into place when the time is right. God’s plan is good!

Thursday, 5 July 2012

LONDON

Bonjour,
I meant to write this last week but eh I got lazy and kept putting it off. Which I now realise was silly, because I won’t have as fresh a memory of London if I had written it sooner. Aw well.
I mentioned in my last post that Emma and I were going to London for the weekend! So yes, I have returned and much to share about our travels. I shall summarise each day now...

FUN FRIDAY
I had intended this trip to be stress-free, and if you know me at all, that wouldn’t be easy. Alas, this was not meant to be! Sean the Sat-nav refused to work to navigate us to the airport. Thankfully through trial and error, Emma remembered her bearings and we arrived in plenty of time. 
After arriving at Southend round 10am, we took the train in to London and found our way to the hotel. After dumping our suitcases we tubed it to Baker Street, where we went to Sherlock Holmes’ house! 
Following that we took a tour on an open top bus and saw all the sights, in comfort. A lot of the areas and buildings were under maintenance, presumably for the Olympics. Generally the city didn’t seem as busy as it usually would so we booked at the perfect time. 
That evening, we met Amy and her friends, Matt, Hannah and Jeremy in Piccadilly Circus. We caught up and ate pizza, and then Emma and I went to see Phantom of the Opera. The show was pretty amazing, despite our odd seating. (We were basically looking directly down at the stage?) Definitely a great night out though. 

SHOPPING AND SEOUL SATURDAY
First stop on Saturday was Covent Gardens - which is definitely the place to visit over the weekend. Market is open and the place was buzzing that morning. The stores are so cute and there were musicians and performers entertaining the busy shoppers.

I had the bright idea of making Saturday the ‘big Korea day’ so suggested we should eat in a Korean restaurant. After researching online, we discovered a little place off Soho called Seoul Bakery - a dingy little cafe which served Korean dishes. What brought this odd little place to our attention was the fact that both SHINee and Super Junior’s Siwon had ate there, and signed their names on the wall. Not only wanting to see that, we also both lived in hope we would accidentally bump into EXO too.
It certainly was a strange place to eat, and we felt both super awkward going in but were warmly welcomed by the friendly waitress. I ordered some kind of spicy soup and Emma ordered an egg dish - both were yummy. It was bizarre to be eating out and 2NE1 playing in the background, haha.
Before we left, we were given pens and sticky notes and left our memories on the wall, a common practice in Korean cafes. It was a lovely and enjoyable lunch! For the record, no, we didn’t meet EXO.
Next stop was Harrods and Hamleys - both crucial places that must be visited!! Harrods was outstanding, of course. Hamleys - not so much. Emma was convinced she saw Robert Pattinson walk past on Oxford Street, but after following him...yeah it wasn’t him. To my delight, after four years of waiting, I finally visited the Irregular Choice store, it was wonderful! We went to HMV and gasped at the amount of K-Pop CDs they sell now, and I bought Heartbreaker by G-Dragon and 2NE1’s Second album. (In celebration of the holiday.) After wandering about for a few hours, it was soon time to get ready for the concert!

MBC KOREAN CULTURAL FESTIVAL
We took the tube to the O2 Arena and got some weird looks from other K-Pop fans, who were maybe unsure if we were actually fans or not. Not meaning to be stereotypical or anything, but it’s very easy to recognise fandoms. K-Pop fans are an unusual crowd - often spotted with vividly coloured hair, multiple piercings, light-sticks, high-tops etc - and that’s just the girls. The rest of the audience consisted of mainly gay white boys, asian girls and asian girls’ boyfriends. I’m just observing and making assumptions here! Surprisingly Emma and I were some of the more average-looking people there. We dressed to impress! What if we bumped into EXO?? Surely we needed to TRY to look decent beside flawless Kai?
We stood in the line for what seemed like hours after a tasty burger in the arena, talking to a group of girls whom we met at the burger restaurant. Wye Zhi and Leanne, both DBSK fans, were the two Emma and I made friends with. It was so SO bizarre talking to other people about K-Pop though?!? Unfortunately we didn’t get to see any of the girls after the show and didn’t think of getting our photos with them at the time.
FINALLY we got into the indigo2 arena and THE SHOW HAD ALREADY STARTED! After a stressful period of trying to find our seats, we soon realised we only missed one 4minute song - who opened the concert. (I would be more pissed off about this because it was up to o2/concert organisers to open the doors earlier, but again if we cared THAT much we would have been in the queue earlier.)
The atmosphere was tense - the whole building was going CRAZY. Like I’ve seen in shows and live performances how much the audience screamed, but it’s so different when you’re in the crowd. You can’t help but join in. (I lost my voice the next day, whoops! I’m surprised I didn’t go deaf either.)
4MINUTE opened with four songs: Volume Up, Mirror Mirror, Huh and Hot Issue. The girls had stunning silver and black matching outfits on with a shiny jacket and fringed skirt. 
In-between the K-pop artists performances, traditional acts kept the audience occupied. The first guy performed stunts and the second was a modernised traditional music group called Queen. They played a variation of beautiful and contemporary songs.
Following that, more traditional male dancers appeared, called the Samulnori team, who skillfully whipped back and forth tassels which were attached to their head? It sounds strange but I was enthralled! Afterwards, a combination of the cultural entertainers performed the classic song, Arirang, wearing traditional Korean dress robes.
Next act up was NORAZO - a comedic and eccentric duo who isn’t the most well-known act of the three, probably gained at least 2000 new fans that night in the U.K! Emma and I were flabbergasted at how awesome these guys performed live. It was a blast - and our hearts melted when we saw how incredible Lee Hyuk’s voice is! They performed Happy Song, Curry, King of Sales and Superman.
Dae2Baek Movement starred next - a dance group who psyched the audience up dancing to songs by Wonder Girls, BAP, T-ARA, U-KISS and of course, BIGBANG. The crowd went MAD when Fantastic Baby played! So awesome! Two of the male dancers teased the audience and the response was wild.
4minute members returned wearing Hanboks (traditional Korean dress) for a fashion show. Other models wore hanboks designed by Park Su Nyeol - who was present in the audience and made an appearance at the end. Although this was very enjoyable I was itching to see EXO, lol.
It was clear I wasn’t the only one, the audience couldn’t contain their excitement and at the end of the fashion show people were chanting “EXO EXO EXO!” Cue a blacked out arena and video titles. What’s funny here is I’m not even a big EXO fan, but I couldn’t help but join in with all the screaming! We were both giddy with excitement! 
The boys strutted on stage and History immediately started playing. After much trouser-flapping, sweet moves and lets face it, obvious lip-syncing, they introduced themselves. Well, I THINK they did. Girls were screaming so hard it was hard to decipher what was being said. And I wasn’t quite able to tell them apart, but that’s okay - because my eyes were focused on Kai and his sparkly red vest.
After a stunning performance of Angel, incorporating some sweet-ass ballet moves from my man Kai, EXO finished with MAMA, their debut track. It was absolutely fab! But alas, it was over in a flash - I was expecting them to do another song, but Emma explained that they usually do two, so it’s a surprise they sung Angel. Didn’t mind though because the three they played were absolutely perfect! My ears were ringing and my throat was killing me but heck, it was worth every minute! *adds day to favourite days of life list*

SLEEPY SUNDAY
We took it easy on Sunday - we visited the National Gallery - which was okay for a while then I got bored and began hallucinating that all the paintings were the same (I think I was still on an EXO high so everything else other than Kai just wasn’t worth my time.) I saw Van Gogh and Claude Monet paintings though which was very exciting and caught my attention.
We headed across to the National Portrait Gallery after which focused on modern art and, well portraits. And I saw my first ever real Andy Warhol painting, so it certainly was the icing on top of the cake! 
Then basically we had to head home - although it was just a weekend, it was a weekend of epic proportions, squeezing in so many fun happenings, making many fond memories for both of us.

I only have one thing to say...when’s BIGBANG touring?