30. YOUR REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR

Dear reflection,

You talkin‘ to me? Well of course, I’m the only one here.
I think I’ll do this in parts, like WhatAboutAdam’s video to his body.

Body
Dear body, I would like you body a lot better if you lost a bit more weight. But I’m thankful I’m tall-ish, because I even out more.

Hands
Thanks for being completely normal. Nails, you break too often, but I apologise I bit at you when I get nervous.

Face
I LOVE you face. You and I will both be greatful in about 40 years time when my skin looks fresh from taking care and moisturizing it from the age of fifteen. Thanks for being blemish free too. :)

Eyes
Eyes, I love how dark and pretty you are. Like somedays I don’t even need to wear eye makeup because I can get away without it. Thanks for being big and expressive. You will wonder why I smother eye-cream all over you every other night, but you’ll understand when I’m older.
Vision, why can’t you re-focus yourself so I don’t have to wear glasses or lenses? It’s a hassle waking up and not being able to see anything. If I had the cash I’d get you corrected.

Ears
Sometimes, ears, I wonder can you hear at all. I think I deserve this because I deafened you with music for seven years. I’m sorry.

Nose
I don’t have anything bad to say about you nose. You’re not too big, not to wide, you’re cute as a button.

Lips
Er, well what can I say? I suppose you look alright. Bit chappy in winter but otherwise the best.

Teeth
Grr teeth. Why do you do this to me? I do all I can to help you: I got braces and a selection of teeth whitening and no matter how hard I brush YOU WON’T CHANGE COLOUR. Flip sake, I look like a smoker with these teeth! It knocks all self-confidence I have left and you don’t even care. :[

I will get revenge, teeth, I’m gonna bleach yoooouuuu.

Shoulders
Ew I don’t like you. In photos, I look like I’m built as a house because you are so broad. I don’t want to look like a man, stupid shoulders.

Arms
I’m totally fine with the way you are. Apart from being aware once in a while when Amy ‘flabby-grabbys’ me that my arms are a little big, all is good, because you could be so much worse.

Legs
I exercise all the time and you don’t lose any weight, you just get more toned. Thighs, (eugh I hate that word) you do look fat but thankfully I don’t have any stretch marks or anything mega gross too.

Feet
Footsize, you are SO awkward: 6 1/2!! Do you know how hard it is to get shoes that fit? I will never forgive you for not fitting into those Irregular Choice silver boots, they looked so cool. :( (May I point out, I found the image of these boots on a website called The Fashion Police, where they mocked them :p who needs practical shoes anyway??)
Feet, you aren’t in the best condition, but I fail at looking after you. Look after yourself!

Hair
I adore you! I love your thickness and luxurious brown shade. Sometimes I should advertise with hair this shiny. You sit so perfectly. Mmm you’re so glossy I could eat you.
I want to apologise for dying and highlighting you in my younger years: your quality is much better now that I don’t. I will never cut you up again, a bob was not a good idea. Growing it out was even worse.
I don’t care if a fringe is unimaginative and dull. People think I’m a lot younger because of it and my flawless but childish round face, which can be useful. I love it because it’s dead handy to maintain, and it’s trademark of the claud.

Lots of Love.

CLAUDIA. x

TRAP!

Hello!

Want to hear something amusing? I was at Slimming World this morning!

It was so busy, packed with all these women and their new born children. Even a few men too.

To be honest, I didn't really enjoy it. Now I'm trapped in this diet filled with SYNS, free foods and 'superfoods." I got a handful of books and offers and stuff. But sure, I'll give it a go. It's part of my many new years resolutions. People were declaring they lost half a stone in a week, so wish me luck!

My immense number of exams are now OVER. R.E on Friday past was deadly, but English Literature yesterday was grand. I have two days off school, today and tomorrow. Awesome.

UPDATE

I took a day off school today to revise. I never do that. It's weird.

I haven't started yet.

But I have started to IRON! I hate it.

Okay, here is how the New Year's Resolutions are going:

Be crazy and adventurous:-

• Go out in the weekend
• Try new food- Mum gave me lamb chop for dinner yesterday and I was near sick.
• Wear different clothes
• Go different places
• Listen to range of music-Started to listen to more K-Pop, love it!
• Learn new language-Learning Korean.
• Watch movies- I have Transformers to watch.
• Plan events and carry them out.- Currently planning LONDON. My Birthday party too, less than a month.

Meet new people- hmm, I don't know if I have done this one yet or not.

Become closer to God- I should really have more quiet time.

Learn to drive- STILL not behind the wheel. But I sent my provisional away yesterday!

Save money- I put money into my bank account there on Tuesday. Desperately trying to save for London at Easter.

Become nicer to people- Temper? Okay I guess.. but I have been moody round the house, possibly exam stress. And I don't swear as much, that's good. I think I have been more polite, but I forgot about this resolution so these are all guesses.

Lose Weight- die die die die die die die

Exercise- woo! I was at the Gym on Tuesday evening and I think I'm going again tonight. I wonder will the fit Chinese man be there...

Become more creative- fail fail fail!! I haven't done any "fun" art yet, just school stuff. Actually quite proud of my school stuff though...

Volunteer- No, still lazy and useless as ever.

Pass exams- Well this isn't going to happen if I don't start revising!!!

WILLPOWER

WILLPOWER

WILLPOWER

Emma and I saw Kerri dance to "It's You" last night. It was amazing. I scorn my foolish younger self for refusing to go to ballet when Mother asked me to.

BLARGLE

Hey,

What a long day. I haven't done much, but I have felt awful stressed. I hate the thought of school tomorrow. Really makes me feel sick. I know that sounds silly but I just hate going back after Christmas, faced with exams and back to normal routine. Kerri's making me a calendar, which makes me feel slightly better. Perhaps she will have it done for tomorrow.

Mum's annoying me, she's forcing me to start to do my own ironing. I wear too much clothes and she says most of the laundry is mine. My plan is to just not iron at all. Or wear clothes that don't need ironing. Let them all pile up outside my room. I shall be lazy and a disgusting woman.

I read Super Junior fan fiction which Emma had sent me, that amused me for a few hours. I sat last night watching YouTube videos til like 1am, I regretted that this morning when I couldn't get up.

I went to Lisburn today to get Henry engraved, but supposedly the machine is too small for the MacBook to fit under it, so I have to find somewhere else. I'm determined to get it done!

I want to become more secretive, more suspicious, interesting and strange. However I have no secrets, and I blab everything. I'll try and accomplish that this week.

I need money soo badly. I might just have to do the lotto.

And I need to stop eating too.

~Claudia

P.S I love Eunhyuk. He's da man.

CH-CH-CHANGES

I want to write a blog about new year's resolutions. Here goes.

Become closer to God- I've been so distant recently it's embarrassing. Due to going to bed so late, I haven't had time for quiet time, and my prayers are a mumbley mess. I need to get back into routine of putting God first in my life. This just hasn't been happening.

Be crazy and adventurous- I'm just so lazy! I sit in every weekend. I need to get out more, experience new stuff; like try new food, wear different clothes, go different places, listen to a range of music, learn a new language, watch movies, plan events and carry them out.

Meet new people- I seem to hang out with the same old crowd all the time, I would love to meet new people and have a wider range of friends. I'm really quiet though, and most of the time I don't have a clue what to say to people. I shall conker this! *determined face*

Learn to drive- Something I dread, but it must be done! Actually, dad was looking for a car for me last night, and I did get excited about it. I'm hopeless at theory (to put it this way, I scraped my cycling proficiency when I was 11) But there is a lot of thickos who have their test, so maybe it's not as hard as it looks?

Save Money- HAH well this is mission impossible- due to the fact I need money to run a future car, and that I just love spending cash. I will be more careful on what I spend money on. I don't have a job- that could go on the list too.

Become nicer to people- I have the worst temper, I need to learn to control it. I also need to become more polite because I'm sometimes rude and don't even realise. Whoops. I also have started this habit of swearing under my breath, or replacing swear words with these made up words (example: ssssss..sugarbooger. or. "si-ah-hash-sheesh" which is basically Parseltongue in Harry Potter. lawl.)

Lose weight- Okay, even half a stone I would be happy with. I have NO willpower whatsoever, probably the same willpower as a smoker trying to quit. It's like battling the Blob in Scribblenauts; You can't win.

Exercise- This ties in with point above. Try and get to the gym once a week, twice if I'm lucky.

Become more creative- Blog often, keep a planner (I have for the last two years running, it's definitely one of my better ideas) draw often;- put this art onto deviantart, perhaps make a YouTube video? Photoshop loads (that reminds me I need to get my Corel Photoshop off Sarah.)

Volunteer- Once again, I am lazy and not willing to help others. I need to write a CV in the near future, if I don't do something about it, it will be an empty CV. Not cool man.

Pass exams- Flip I haven't started revision! My whole school stuff is going downhill. I'm just so lazy. Work work work work work work work in 2010 Claudia.

Til my next blogging session,

Claudia. :)