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Something you hate about yourself:
What a pessimistic question! I don’t think there’s anything I absolutely hate, just a few flaws in my personality and lifestyle I think I would like to change. One of them would be that I waste my time on silly things then neglect the things which are more important. Appearance wise, I always look really cross, so people think I’m aggressive - it’s just my normal expression though, sigh!

Something you love about yourself:
My wide variety of loud and embarrassing laughs.

Something you regret:
I regret not spending more time with my Granny before she died. I know that’s silly thinking like that because we visited her quite regularly. But I wish when I was there - I listened to what she said, I took interest in the conversation - instead of just sitting texting on my phone. Just thinking of it tears me up. How could I have been so stupid!

Something you have to forgive yourself for:
I have to forgive myself for being such a big horrible mess of a human being a few years ago. I’m trying to make up for it now by being nicer.

Something you have to forgive someone for:
Certain individuals who I felt bullied me in my younger years. Also a couple of people who made fun of my weight. There are some things which are harder to forgive than others.

Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life:
I wish I remembered who was important when I had them in my life. I wish I didn’t bicker with Jordan as much when she was alive. I wish I didn’t beat myself up due to my lack of self-confidence. I wish that I hadn’t told so many lies to my parents. I wish I wasn’t so angry at people for so many unnecessary reasons.

Something you wish you had done in your life:
I wish that I hadn’t wasted my life obsessing over things and used that time and energy to serve God. Why am I so capable of telling others to listen to K-Pop, but massively fail at telling others about the Good News of Jesus?? CLAUDIA YOU MESS.

Something you hope to do in your life:
Oh the usual female ambitions - get married, get a house, have kids, job etc.

Something you hope you never have to do:
Watch someone I love die - that would be a frightening and unpleasant experience.

Something you hope to change about yourself:
Wow these questions are deep! I hope to become 100% reliant on God. I always say I will, but when things are going well, I tend to forget about him. Then when things go wrong, I always expect him to fix my problems.

Someone who has made your life worth living for:
I remember Jordan saying in a post a long time ago: *cheesy Christian answer* My answer here is Jesus. He died for my sins so I definitely owe him one. Living for Jesus is the best decision I’ve ever made.

Something people seem to compliment you the most on:
My blue glasses, haha. Or my hair possibly?

Something you never get compliments on:
Er my eyes? I like my eyes anyway. Maybe no-one can see them because they are distracted by the glasses.

- Claudia

PAUSE

Hello! Short break from the meme thing to update y’all on my happenings in my pathetic little life. Okay not really, life has been alright.

University and Summer

In the middle of May I finished my exams and handed in my final pieces of coursework, which meant I was free for the summer. Hooray! Yes it’s nice to have a break however I was worried I wouldn’t have anything to do because I have 132 days off until I’m back again! (That’s quite a lot, compared to the 60/90ish days we had in school.) Therefore I devised a list of people I need to meet, places I need to go and things I need to do. So far these lists are flourishing, with a few things crossed off already - including baking, painting and sunbathing! Good stuff.

Granny

Despite my fun expectations for the summer, sadness crept it’s way into the Green family household this week. My Granny Green was battling with cancer for over three years, and alas, the condition was triumphant where on Sunday 10th June, she peacefully passed away in hospital. Although it was expected, it was still an upsetting and shocking occurrence for all of us, especially Dad. Being one of the eldest of the grandchildren, I was invited to read a few verses from Proverbs 3 at the funeral. Not an easy thing to do, but she chose the verses herself so I knew I had to make her proud. It gave me great comfort because it was some of my favourite verses. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” Wise words to live by methinks. Granny was a very special lady - greatly missed, but now in the arms of Jesus. 

Mural

A few weeks ago, the community’s two Primary schools got involved in painting a mural which will be placed on one of the ugly walls within the village. It’s part of a scheme to make our area more attractive. (Unsure how successful this scheme will be, but supporting Mourne none-the less) The team required volunteers so they invited me to assist the kids. I LOVED it! I forgot how wonderful it was just to sit down and paint. Surprisingly, the picture only took 4 days to create and in my opinion it looks pretty sweet. The mural will have it’s big unveiling on Wednesday this week at 1:45pm, so you are all invited to see the masterpiece!

Olympic Torch

As you all may be aware, the Olympics are being held by London this year! Although I’m not a big fan of sports, I think it’s pretty awesome that the country has this opportunity to host such a big event. The big gold Olympic torch is currently traveling round the U.K, which included Northern Ireland. One of these stops were in Newcastle, so we had the chance to travel down at 6:50am on Wednesday 6th June to see it run by! It was a really lovely atmosphere and worth getting up so early to see. 

London

Woooah, I think I’m transforming into a different person lately because Emma and I have booked a weekend away to London! If you know me at all, this isn’t something I would even THINK about never-mind carry out. (Although Emma threatened to get my sedated when going through the airports, man I hate airports...) However!! I have turned my life around - I’m making the most of my opportunities when I am young and have the chance to do something fun, yada, yada, yada...

OH yeah, so the reason we have decided to undertake this mission is because Korean pop groups called EXO and 4MINUTE are doing a concert in the O2 arena. Heck, it was cheap so we booked it - plus we organised tickets a broadway show! We shall also shop and sight-see. So we’ve made a mini-holiday out of it. I’m VERY excited! 

It’s also stroking “See a K-Pop concert” off my bucket list. Oh, and I’ll have to learn Exo’s names before I go, just incase we run into them there - I only recognise Kai! 

Look here we all are in Piccadilly Circus. These babies aren't anything compared to my presh presh BIGBANG but it’ll be fuuuunnnn!

CHINA

I have had a super day - coursework handed in and shared quality time with Emma and Rebecca. Only an exam to go and then I'm finished for the holidays.

Fast forward to about 10 minutes ago - I received a text message. The text was from Hannah - a girl I know through C.U and through Media studies. She was asking if I was genuinely thinking of going to China. 

Let me catch you up - earlier in the week during a lecture we were offered the opportunity to go to China for a semester next year. There we could attend the media university there - which our university has recently teamed up with. So UoU students have been offered to be exchange students for a year, and we are the first year to be given the chance to.

My first impression of this offer was quite typically me - I thought it would be a fabulous opportunity, but alas, I would be too much of a chicken to actually go. (Then later I will complain that I don't do anything with my life. This is my mindset, it always has been. I'm a very negative person.)

I mentioned it to Mum in passing, and she just laughed it off. Agreeing that I would be too big of a woose to actually go and I just wouldn't be capable of it. This was an expected response.

Then I mentioned it to others - including my Small Groups leader Jemma and a few on Facebook - and they were insistent about how it would be an amazing opportunity and not to miss it. 

Now I am in a dilemma. In my head, I know it would be a terrible idea - I simply don't have the courage to go, I would have to leave my family and friends for a couple of months and YEAH, IT'S CHINA. This is the girl who hasn't even flown on a plane on her own. 

Then, oh, it's such a peculiar feeling - my heart wants to just say GO FOR IT! It'll be a wonderful experience, living away from home and it's a once in a lifetime opportunity. And, yeah, it's CHINA.


But then, it feels like my heart is in pain - it wants to say yes, but I just want a go-ahead from God. It's a sick feeling of uncertainty. I want a sign that makes it so crystal clear. I want courage. I want to know if it's the right decision, or if something even better will be around the corner.  


Okay I'll shut up now,
Claudia

NEWS

To inform you all,

Bad News

I did not get into my Viscom course.

I’m completely gutted to be honest, despite knowing well that it’s a tough course to get into on top of it being over subscribed.

It’s hard to understand why a goal feels so so close of reaching but completely fails. Gosh I’ve never worked so hard on something before! It’s really depressing.

I’m guessing God has a much better plan for my future, it’s so scary not knowing what this may be though. :-/

University wise, I’m depending on my last choice which I still haven’t heard from yet: Foundation Art in Belfast UU. Highly unlikely i’ll get into that because it’s so competitive, but I also have the option of this course in Newry tech or Belfast Metropolitan.

Blah who knows, thinking about this hurts my head too much.

Good News

K-POP IS COMING TO EUROPE.

TVXQ.

Super Junior.

Girls Generation.

SHINee

F(x)

Are touring Paris on the 10th of June!!!

SM Town are doing their first tour of Europe (AKA, one city in Paris) with their biggest groups, including ones I adore. My exams finish in the middle of May and I don’t have any holidays booked so I feel the need to GO TO PARIS.

After I sobbed for a good 20 minutes about Viscom rejection, I asked Mum could I go to Paris instead of University. (Who needs a future anyway)

“Nice try.”