Sunday, 16 March 2014

MEME 2014


Unnecessarily detailed answers over simple questions!! I’m in a rant-ish kinda mood, and it’s been ages since I’ve blogged properly and I need a break from coursework, so here we go...

Are you outgoing or shy?
Hmm... I’m definitely not outgoing, I find it difficult talking to people in large groups. I’m not shy either, because I can talk if I need to. But sometimes I just don’t like talking, and therefore people think I’m shy.

Who are you looking forward to seeing?
I’m really looking forward to seeing my friends who are living abroad this year. I miss them, and I’m looking forward to seeing them in the summer.

Are you easy to get along with?
I’d like to say yes, because I try to be friendly to everyone, but sometimes it’s difficult, especially if there’s a personality clash between me and them.

If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
First of all, I don’t drink and don’t intend to. But if I was, I probably wouldn’t, because they would see me in a state that I wouldn’t want them to witness. 

What kind of people are you attracted to?
I’ve discovered I’m quite attracted to unusual, excluded and quiet people. I don’t mean that in a bad way, I just feel like I’m on a similar level to them and find them easiest to talk to. In looking at the opposite sex, I tend to be attracted to confident and clever guys - but I try to avoid those characteristics when looking for a boyfriend because they become patronizing and make me feel worthless.

Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
Going by my lack of success in prior relationships, probably not. But who knows, that would be nice.

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Hmm, no, not really.

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Emma I think? We were in the car on our way home from Coleraine. The topic was how crap we felt that we were both single. Eh, it happens.

Do you like it when people play with your hair?
Yes I do! I remember in Primary School girls loved plaiting my hair because it was so long.

Do you believe in luck and miracles?
I don’t believe in luck but I believe in miracles.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Nope, some things are best left in the past.

Do you still talk to your first crush?
Haha, sometimes! Not for a long time now. I was only 6 when I had the crush so I’m not sure if it counts.

Do you like bubble baths?
I love bubble baths! I got two bath bombs - one for Christmas and one for my birthday and haven’t used either. I was going to last night, but I think there’s something wrong with the bath tap and it still isn’t fixed. The only thing I don’t like about baths is the wrinkly fingers you get when you sit in the water too long.

Do you like your neighbours?
My neighbours are my Aunt and Uncle and Granny and Granda, so yeah I do.

Where would you like to travel?
Honestly I’m not big into traveling very much, but I have always wanted to go to Paris and Japan.

Do you have trust issues?
Unfortunately I do. 

Favourite part of your daily routine?
Reading my bible notes as I eat my breakfast.

What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
My tummy - it’s where I put on weight. Noot.

What do you do when you wake up?
I check the time on my phone usually, then I just get up, open my window, make my bed and go eat!

Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
I sometimes wish it was a bit darker so I had a beautiful tan all the time!

Who are you most comfortable around?
Emboooooot. 

Have any of your exs told you they regret breaking up?
Nahh

Do you ever want to get married?
Sometimes I do, and sometimes I don’t. When I was 16, I mapped out my life: I wanted to have found the man of my dreams by the age of 20 - then we would date for a few years and wed by the age of 24. Now I am 21, and I couldn’t imagine anything worse than getting married.

Do you play sports? What sports?
No I don’t, haha. I really am not the sporty type. 

Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
Haha yes, many times! Most times actually. I am spotting possible reasons as to why I may be single...

Describe your dream guy?
Goodness, where to I begin! Curly hair, gorgeous dark eyes and/or a killer smile gets me every time. Bonus if they wear glasses. Brilliant sense of humour and able to laugh at my lame-ass jokes. Gentle and kind. Christian of course. Not too romantic. Able to embrace and accept me the way I am. (Please send applications to.......)

What are your favourite stores to shop in?
I love ZARA, T.K Maxx (bargains yeooo) and River Island (sometimes). 

What do you want to do after you graduate?
After I finish my undergrad, I’m hoping (God-willing) to do a Masters. After that... I’ll probably geta  job somewhere or if that’s not available, I’ll keep doing various design freelance work.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
I guess it depends on the situation and what destroyed the first chance.

If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
Ohh! Good question. I go very quiet if I’m in large groups, with people I don’t like, if I’m tired or if I disagree with what someone says.

Do you smile at strangers?
I try to smile at strangers - I actually made it as one of my New Months Resolutions last year (trying out something for a month) but it’s actually really hard because you don’t want to look creepy or give guys the wrong idea, haha.

What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
Lots to do! I am a morning person. The earlier I wake, the better I feel. I know that goes against the norms of most people my age, but if I wake any later than 11am, I feel there’s no point getting up because half the day is basically over.

What are you paranoid about?
I fear people think I’m overweight - even though I’ve lost a lot of weight since school. Still, I’m afraid of looking fat and I’m very self-conscious about it. 

Ever wished you were someone else?
Definitely not. While I’m sometimes unhappy with my appearance (who isn’t, I guess) I wouldn’t want to be anybody else.

One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
I wish my metabolism worked quicker. Doesn’t matter how well I eat or how much I exercise, I could stay the same weight for three weeks solid. Then I give up and eat crap and immediately gain 3lbs.

Ever been in love? 
No I haven’t.

Facebook or Twitter?
I’m saying Facebook because everyone is on it, and if you need them, they’re probably there. Plus you know what’s going on with other people.

Twitter or Tumblr?
Tumblr is wonderful but a terrible time-waster. (http://claudbeans.tumblr.com/)

Names of your best friends? 
Should I answer this? I have lots of wonderful friends in different places and I don’t like ranking them. Emboot has been my best friend for 9 years though.

Favourite animal?
Ooh, I can’t just choose one. I love dogs, zebras and alpacas.

Do you tan a lot?
Unfortunately I don’t! I used to tan a lot better when I was younger, but I think the many years spent as an ‘inside’ person ruined my tannable skin.

Have any pets?
I have three dogs: Toby the Westie, Mikey the Labrador and Bennie the Collie thing.

How are you feeling?
Honestly I’m pretty good, while I’ve loads of dissertation coursework to do, I’m pretty positive about it all at the minute. I got a job which should span into the summer so I’m over the moon about that. With my end of year show, graduation and holiday coming up, things are looking promising.

Do you type fast?
Yes I do - I’ve been told that quite a few times. 

Do you regret anything from your past?
I try not to think about the past. I think anything bad that has happened to me before has defined me as a person, so I wouldn’t change anything. NO RAGRETS.

Do you miss anyone from your past?
Yes, so many people. It’s one of those things you become aware of when you get older, particularly when you leave school. People move on. You want to hold on, but it’s impossible. Life gets in the way, new friendships are made and old ones are neglected. It’s really hard.

Ever broken someone’s heart?
I hope I haven’t. If I have, I’m really sorry. Let me know if I have and I’ll make it up to you..somehow.

Have you ever been on a horse?
I recently learnt I’m actually VERY afraid of horses. They are really big and could crush you! I honestly don’t know how people think it’s okay to get on top of it!

Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
Yes, oh wow it’s such a bizarre feeling. If I really, really like someone I lose my appetite (that’s about the only time that happens...ha.)

Are you mean?
I used to be. I actually was really horrible to some people and I didn’t even care. I’ve softened over the years. People being mean to me allowed me to see perspective of how I treated others

Is cheating ever okay?
No it isn’t. Like some people already feel super insecure, the thought of their partner cheating on them makes it even worse. It is dreadful.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
I don’t know. It’s never happened to me. 

Do you believe in true love?
I do believe it exists. But it hasn’t happened to me either.

What makes you happy?
I’m really happy when I’m laughing at really dumb jokes with friends, snuggled watching T.V with family on Sunday afternoons and that feeling that it’s going well when I’m working on graphic design stuff. 

Wednesday, 19 February 2014

TWENTY ONE

Evening all,

Already into my fourth week at uni, boy time is going fast! Currently working on my dissertation - focusing on Identity and Fan Culture, I hope you aren’t surprised about that. At first I thought it was super cliché to write about Fandom, but hey it interests me and current, so I’m having a blast to research it. However books are a problem, since most I’ve looked at are 2011 and onwards. Fan Culture is quite a new topic, so books relating to modern fandoms like Doctor Who or Supernatural are a clean fortune. I paid £55 for one book, broke the bank and broke my heart! 

Anyway, University has been fun this year - it’s been busy but I’m happy. I had my 21st on the 6th Feb. It was quite low-key but I didn’t want to do much when my friends were away, so I had a little family gathering instead. I had a tea-party and cake night for my granny, aunts etc. It actually was really nice. Plus Mum got me THE BEST CAKE EVER. See the pictures!! I also went out bowling and cinema with my classmates which was really lovely. Good fun indeed.

I received dollars mostly as gifts, which was appreciated for New York in July! I’m very excited. But before that I have my End of Year show (presenting my work) and of course, my Graduation! Also other fun things are booked, including Panic! At The Disco and Comic Con in Belfast. The next few months be a hoot! 

So yeah, I’m sorry this has been brief but life has been good! 


- Claudia x

Sunday, 5 January 2014

HIGHLIGHTS OF 2013


❐ Best Moments of 2013
  • Meeting Liam Neeson and appearing on T.V!
  • Andy Warhol Exhibition
  • One Direction
  • Hen Party in Manchester
  • ‘Sim Thursdays’ with Sebastian
  • Media Formal in May
  • Seeing Josh Groban in Dublin!!!!!
  • Diane and Aaron’s wedding - when I was bridesmaid
  • Taking part in FUSED summer scheme again
  • BBQ at Cranfield beatch
  • Emma and Rebecca sleepover and fun day in Newcastle
  • Helping out with art projects (The Giant Fish!)
  • Making Mary-Jane’s 21st Birthday BOX!
  • Laura’s Segway Birthday
  • My Photography Project
  • Doctor Who and Sherlock comeback
  • Awesome days spent in Belfast
  • Making Candy Canes for the IMA dinner with Seb and Emma.
  • The best NYE ever. Ever.


❐ Biggest Achievements:
1st and 2nd place for my coursework at the Ulster Media Show 
4th place in a worldwide competition for Josh Groban’s ‘In The Round’ tour

❐ Biggest Failures:
2nd Year in general. It had it’s good moments yes, but it mainly sucked.


❐ Happiest Moment:
Waving at people out the window of a limo on Diane and Aaron’s wedding! Seeing Kerri and Emma when they came home for Christmas. New Year’s Eve - Otamatone and Jewish song dancing. 

❐ Saddest Moment:
Thankfully nothing particularly bad has happened this year, the worst was probably that My Chemical Romance broke up. :/ And that the Jonas Brothers are too?? 

❐ Biggest Shock:
Peter Capaldi?!


❐ Best Purchase:
My Graduation Dress - SALES FTW and my green Henry Holland coat.

❐ Greatest Musical Discoveries:
Alex Day and Marina and the Diamonds

❐ Song and MV of the Year:
This is Gospel - Panic at the Disco


❐ Best Film of the Year:
‘Star Trek - Into Darkness’ and ‘Frozen’

❐ Greatest Discoveries of the Year:
Gel Nails and Community!

❐ Biggest Addiction:
Youtube, Korean Drama ‘Heartstrings’ and Snapchat.


❐ Favourite People Award:
Paloma Faith, Captain America, Dan and Phil and ‘the fine strapping young lad’ Josh Groban.

Happy New Year everyone! 

- Claudia

Sunday, 29 December 2013

DECEMBER AGAIN

Hello, remember me?

I’ve missed blogging. Coursework got the better of me. I’m now half way through Final Year, and wow, it has gone so fast. I had a great few months and now I will share...

University
I’m really settled at uni this year, as I mentioned in my last post. I realised how important my friends are and feel I’ve got a lot closer to them this year. Work has tightened up for third year but I really enjoyed what coursework I was working on. You can see here and here where my time has gone during the 12 weeks of Semester 1. In late January I’ll be starting my dissertation (8000-1000 word essay) on a topic I’m interested in, and will also produce a final practical project which will be on display at the End of Year Show in May. Yikes! Although it seems daunting, truthfully I'm excited to working on a topic that focuses on my interests. I think I know what I’m working on, but an assigned supervisor helps me along who I meet once a week to discuss how I'm getting on.


Friends
Home and University life was weird due to a couple of my friends not being at home. Rebecca, Kerri and Emma were studying/working abroad but were coming home for Christmas. I was counting down the days until I saw them again so December was an exciting month! 

Christmas
Christmas is so wonderful I felt it should have it’s own section. Lots of festivities at University, including the Christian Union and my course Dinners. As well as shopping, films, Starbucks, days out with friends and sorting last minute presents.
Remember in my last post I fell in love with a jacket? I am excited to announce my Mother picked up on my many hints and bought me it! (shown above) I think I’ve worn it everyday so yeah I was delighted. I got lots of other awesome pressies too - perfume, an amazing laptop bag from Emma and an external hard-drive. It was nice spending time with my family and chilling for a few days. Hope everyone had a nice Christmas! 

- Claudia


Friday, 4 October 2013

LIFE UPDATE: SEPT/OCT


Hey - I’m writing this post in Starbucks in Belfast. To be honest I feel a bit of a prat sitting in by the window with my Macbook on my knee, sipping my Caramel Creme Blend. (Yum!)
Quick life update. I fear now that I’m in final year I won’t have any time to blog due to coursework/dissertation so I’m making most of this opportunity. I apologise in advance if I don’t post anything.

Final Year
Dun dun dun! My university course is coming to an end. I can’t believe I’ve just started my third and final year - honestly, I would want to do it all again. I really don’t want to leave! No plans as yet as to what I’m going to do for the rest of my life. Right now, I’m just taking it a day at a time. Back into halls this year and loving it. It’s so handy living on campus and my flatmates are lovely. I think it’s going to be a great year. 

Obsessions
I have fallen back in love with Fall Out Boy. The new album ‘Save Rock and Roll’, is okay I guess, but they’ve changed a lot over hiatus and I prefer their older work. Infinity on High is my all-time favourite album and it constantly plays in my car.
Also have got hooked on watching Youtube videos - completely adore Crabstickz, Danisnotonfire and Amazing Phil. I’ve been watching them everyday, so funny! Reminds me of when I was 16 and constantly watched Shane Dawson and Charlieissocoollike. The good old days.

Fashion
Hoorah! It’s finally Autumn! The weather is getting colder which means jumpers, boots, coats, HATS! I don’t really like summer weather (too warm so I die) so I get really excited because it’s coming into my favourite time of year. Was walking through Debenhams last month and a brand caught my eye called ‘H! by Henry Holland’ I’ve heard of him before but since that day I’ve fallen in love with his clothes. I’ve got my eyes on this green coat, it really is beautiful - I’ve tried it on like 4 times now, haha. The t-shirts and jumpers are also very cute and reasonable, I’m bound to buy one soon! It’s hard to save money. ~_~

Life of Claudia
I’m very excited to announce that i’m ~hopefully~ going on holidays next year. Woo! Instead of having a 21st party, Mum said I can go anywhere in the world for a family holiday. My first choice was Japan/Korea but she wormed her way out of that...hmm.. so the second choice was NEW YORK!! Nothing planned or sorted yet but I’m very excited for next summer! :D

Enjoy your weekend everyone!!

- Claudia





Wednesday, 25 September 2013

TWO YEARS ON

This day, two years ago, has changed me in ways that I could have never imagined as a teenager. It was that fateful day that I realised how precious life is and “to live every day like it’s your last.”  You hear people say that all the time, but when someone is taken from you so suddenly, you see how meaningful that quote really applies to life. There’s some reason why I’m still here, and although I’m still not quite sure what that could be, I am so glad to be alive.

Although I seem surprisingly positive on such a tragic circumstance, it has had a negative impact too. The accident has made me expect the absolute worst of any situation, i’m terribly paranoid and anxious. I’m also more emotional and compassionate. I’m afraid of goodbyes, fearing I won’t see someone again. I’m reluctant to answer the phone, dreading more bad news. I can’t look at road accidents. I flee from conflict because I feel life is too precious to be fighting with others - Jordan and I fought over silly things and looking back on it now, I see how pointless it is. I hear people complain about something insignificant and I think, ‘Are you serious?’ if that’s the worst of a situation, be joyful, because times could be much worse. 

It amazes me how close our friendship group has come through these tough times - at that time, it was either make or break. We had just left school, apprehensive of the year ahead - starting university or tech. That was tough enough on it’s own. Looking back on it now, it’s amazing how we managed to get through it.
Our friendship flourished, we saw how much we needed each other and were able to comfort each other together. 
You guys are actually the best. You’ve no idea how much I appreciate you all.

I’m thankful for everything that I have been blessed with - a wonderful family, amazing friends and three tremendous years at University, studying what I love most. I couldn’t be happier.

Sometimes, I wish Jordan was still here with us, it’s still so hard to understand that she’s not, and how I wish she could see us now. She had such an impact on so many people through her life and death.

Jordan Minnis, you were extraordinary, and you are missed.

Thursday, 5 September 2013

MEMEMEMEME

Nearly posted this to my tumbalah earlier but soon realised it would be lost in an endless stream of images of TOP, Matt Smith and random tomfoolery, so here it is instead!

01: Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Mehh single life is pretty average. Used to it really. That makes me sound incredibly miserable about it but it's fine - if I'm meant to be in a relationship it will happen when it's meant to.

02: Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
When I'm 30, ideally I'd like to be married and settled down, with children and have built/bought a pretty house. Career wise I hope to be working in something Media related. (I can't see myself doing anything else) Either being self-employed or a job I could work around.

03: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Drugs no. Alcohol - I don't drink but don't mind when others do - as long as they keep it under control. (I mean drinking socially than getting totally hammered.)

04: Your views on religion.
Right now in my life, I've realised there wouldn't be a point in being born if I didn't have my faith.

05: A time you thought about ending your own life.
Haven't had such thoughts thankfully.

06: Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
NO.

07: Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Uhhh I am a Aquarius - just read up on it there and it's quite accurate to a certain degree, but I think those things are created to suit everyone even a little bit.

08: A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
Often when doing coursework - when things are going well and I realise where my talents lie and why I am here.

09: How you hope your future will be like.
I don't really mind as long as I'm happy doing whatever and be wherever I'm meant to be.

10: Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Ehhh first love? Not yet. First kiss? Glad I had my first kiss when I did.

11: Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
• The Beatles - All You Need Is Love
• 2NE1 - Ugly
• Kellis - Milkshake
• Patrick Stump - Allie
• G-Dragon - She's Gone (feat. Kush)
• Owl City - Alligator Sky 
• Wonder Girls - Tell Me
• Aerosmith - Dreamweaver
• Muse - Falling Away With You
• Chameleon Circuit - Blink

12: Bullet your whole day.
Recently my day has been like this:
• 8:15 - Wake up
• 8.30 - 9am - Walk
• 9 - 9.30 - Breakfast and t.v
• 9.30 - 9.45 - Chores
• 9.45 - 10.15 - Trampoline
• 10.15 - 11am - tidy room and sort general things
• 11 - lunch - work on something, wether it being selling on eBay, graphic design or whatever I try to be productive.
• 1pm - 2pm - lunch and news/loose women yay
• 2pm - 5pm - continue on what I was doing (but by 4pm my concentration levels go out the window so it's sometimes sims hour)
• 5pm - dinner
• 6pm onwards - whatever really..then bed. It's good though, pretty productive most of the time.

13: Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
Japan, New York and Paris. Just to visit though. 

14: Your earliest memory.
Of life? I remember my first day of school particularly well, and not being quite sure why my parents were making such a fuss about it.

15: Your favorite tumblrs.
No.

16: Your views on mainstream music.
A lot of it I don't mind listening to, but only about 5% of it would end up on my iPod. It's just when the stuff I quite like is played continuously everywhere for a couple of months and I end up hating it.  

17: Your highs and lows of this past year.
Highs^^
• Good marks in my course, woo.
• Winning an award for my Sherlock coursework.
• Seeing Josh Groban 
• Diane's Wedding 
Lows>>
• Feeling generally like crap since March - fainting and trips to the doctors. Boo.
• Stress and conflict at uni constantly. Mehhhhh!

18: Your beliefs.
Bit vague, but is this like religion again? Generally I have beliefs based on what Christianity follows.

19: Disrespecting your parents.
Not really, we mess about and get along well. If there's a conflict it's usually for something serious.

20: How important you think education is.
Very.

21: One of your favourite shows.
Doctor Whoooo.

22: How have you changed in the past 2 years?
Drastically - I've grown up a lot and like to think I've become wiser.

23: Give pictures of 5 guys/girls who are famous who you find attractive.
• Josh Groban - J'Grobz
• Choi Seunghyun - sexiest man in koreaaa
• Patrick Stump - Fall Out BOOIII
• Benedict Cumberbatch - holla
• Joe Freaking Jonaas!

24: Your favourite movie and what it’s about.
One of my all time favs is The Devil Wears Prada - it's got everything I love! (Anne Hathaway, Meryl Streep and so much fashion) I also watched it yesterday which reminded me of how amazing it is.

25: Someone who fascinates you and why.
Angelina Jolie - I don't know why I just adore her.

26: What kind of person attracts you.
Physically: (in a guy) A geeky look, long dark hair, glasses, pretty smile/ good teeth, beard/stubble.
Character: Funny, quirky, charismatic and sweet.
(P.S: if any of the above matches the criteria please apply)

27: A problem that you have had.
Just my general soul-destroying tiredness everyday. Y A W N.

28: Something that you miss.
Sometimes I miss the securities of school and our tight-knit friendship group.

29: Goals for the next 30 days.
Get thin, work hard and make new friends.

30: Your highs and lows of this month.
It's September, it's just getting started!